Dr's weather not good today ya, took her frustration out on me! Why am I the only one whom always tell her my mood no good, whereas others will tell her "am fine" thou mood no good. In addition, I always bring up stress at work, frustrations...Dr said unless I wanna quit.
In that case, my depression will be forever & that no matter what, medication won't be able to help me if I dun learn coping skills & manage my anger. Citing that she finds me am attention seeking acting like a less than 15 yrs old & I may be independant physically but not emotionally.
I couldn't hear what she said initially about...she said "self-soothing" like hving a pacifier, must know how to pacify ownself without others help. Well, I can do that but I didn't asked her, then why in the 1st place she wanna get married? Who doesn't wanna be loved?
Wanna share with her about some stuffs & she queried whether has it got to do with my depression or not? Duhz!! I just wanna share but then she didn't catch my jokes at all!!
Dr asked what did Kevin do to me...juz talking abt stress at work lor...what else...Dr said there must be some happiness & I musn't focus on negative things. Brought up to her that I had a good counsellor from lakeside family centre & she asked me where it was. Maybe Dr's curious...even when I mentioned my counsellor arranged art therapy for me. Dr asked if am going & that I should go for it after she saw my drawings. Yes, am going...coz counsellor's doing for my own good.
Dr asked who lowered my zoloft dosage...it was Dr Colleen-Snr Consultant from Internal Medicine when I was warded for food poisoning. Dr then up back for me & see me in 5 wks time. Told her my mgr asked me same questions again about whether SGH docs talk to one another or not, otherwise, no point going for all tests & reviews plus medications, see no improvement, might as well don't go see doctors.
Dr said she agreed that I need not see her like in 3 weeks time, 3 weeks time since nothing has changed much for me, seriously..I told her I oso seriously telling her..what my mgr meant is not to go for all my appointments in SGH!! Then Dr said, then that I don't know but for hers, can see me in a month's time. Eeewss, Dr's mood also fluctuating but then she's good deep down.
I showed Dr my BP's readings & she said it's a bit low side & that propanolol hcl can lower my BP & I should see my GP/Poly or Endocrinologist but my earliest appointment is 1st Sep. Dr's steel externally but tofu internally.
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