Can't work in environment with viruses

2nd day at work, 18 Oct, was on morning & afternoon shift - (8.30am to 12.30pm, 2.30 to 5pm). There were many patients, observed my 2 colleagues like extremely busy & stressed (in Canto 'Dou Xie Lot Hai'), couldn't do anything to help them except to register & retrieve patients' cards.


I could feel myself shaky & sweating non-stop. Went to nearby KouFu to have lunch but I was tense up when I saw lotsa people inside this small kopitiam & indeed I was overwhelmed. I couldn't take it anymore, went over to Long John Silver where it's much quieter with lesser crowd, sat down had a drink...trying to calm myself down as unable to control my tears & felt anxiety flaring up uncontrollable.
One side of me saying am so useless, on the other hand, I can overcome this but I can't! =_=
I smsed my colleague about it & she informed Dr. I went back to clinic after I've calmed down. Dr W saw me when she's back at clinic, telling me that by now, I should know I can't work in clinic. I shouldn't have 'melted' & she got sick patients too.

I don't blame her as I can see from her point of view. In fact, am grateful to her for giving me a chance to work in her clinic & she's also understanding despite knowing I've got lotsa appointments & my chronic illnesses. Dr W told me she gave me tues afternoon & wed morning off, making sure I took alprazolem (anti-anxiety medicine) 1st before letting me go home. She waived the fees but gave me 2 days pay.

Friday, I wasn't feeling well feeling feverish, bad cough & flu. Wanted to report for work but ended up seeing Dr S at Clinic. I also wanted to let them see that am really unwell to report for work. Dr S asked me whether I know why I can't work in the clinic & yes, of course.

Dr S told me she told Dr W that with my diabetes, my immunity is very low & can easily catch viruses in their famly clinic. Dr S kept asking Dr W she seriously want to hire me. Dr S's intention was like don't because I can't work in their clinic & PLEASE don't even work in other family clinic. If I catch viruses then my health will further deteriorate. Dr S also waived the fees on friday & gave me Glucerna SR supplement.