Ended up having instant noodles and wheat cracker

Really dunno what to eat, ended having instant noodles & 1 wheat cracker for lunch and took a nap. This morning, waited for Jiahui to do UAT but later she was at console calling our team up to meet her downstairs. When we reached there, she left us to do by ourselves saying that she showed my colleagues how to do it on the day when I was on medical leave - tues. We waited for half an hr, no news of her, we decided to go back to our office to work on requests. Am so tired.

3 pm plus in the afternoon, ate 3 pieces of munchy cheese biscuits, apple pear fruit, milo with oatmeal and 1 diabetes blueberry sweet. Now yearning to have some chocolates. Neck uncomfortable.

Called mother up to learn that there's a big lump on the front of her neck. She wanted to tell me last night but slipped her mind. Worried for mother thou there's no pain when she pressed on it.
Dunno why there's blood when my last period day ended just previous week. Am very frustrated right now...procrastinating...

Argh...am whacking on mini chocos and 3 cappucino mini biscuits, quaker cereals and big sheet seaweed. Terrible!!

-_-!!

40 mins physiotherapy last night

Yesterday night, started on my physio regimen at 8.40 p.m which lasted 40 mins. OMG! Seems like muscle no strength, cause I could feel my leg shaking when the 2.5 lbs weight on my ankle. Almost did the whole set of it. After that, feel refresh though am tired out.

Had, 3 pieces of munchy choco biscuits, 4 slices of roasted seaweed, 5 macademia nuts, 10 bites of popcorn & 1 piece of praline. Oh dear... Am getting fatter each day. Very upset about it.

While am on it, ringing sound in my ear again, very disturbing. Battery died down & I couldn't play music. Difficulty falling asleep though I tried deep breathing.

GF's new shop

This morning, learnt that gf opened another shop yesterday but this time it's 'fashion harbour' at midpoint orchard. Wow! how I envy her. Few months back, she had another jewel shop opened at suntec.

Wish I had a head for business too besides having the capital means to do it. If there's opportunity, would like to have my own food business too.

Happy for her.

Getting nausea and diarrhea

Tues at work, I couldn't stand anymore, the nausea & diarrhea making me sick. Told mgr will be seeing panel doctor & asked which clinic am going. Replied him it's the usual GP am going to.

Diagnosed with virus gastronomy & URTI. Recently, lotsa people having similar symptoms as I do.

Given medical leave for tuesday. Rest at home.

Over the weekends

Woke up at 9 am on sat morning, went to ladies and get onto bed again. Later to find myself waking up in the afternoon. I was very sleepy, dizzy, having dry mouth and ringing sound & pressure on my right ear. Dreams came again...Oh dear.

Dinnertime, mother wanted me to finish up the fish chicken & vegetables, saying I need more nutritious food. I'm already very full.

Woke up even later on sun's afternoon. Wonder what to do, it was raining and there's nothing much tv programmes to watch either. Intended to go Sheng Shiong for window shopping but there's heavy downpour. Dampen my mood even further. Nausea and diarrhea in addition bodyaching and dizziness. Aww... I hate this kinda feeling.

Fri appt at SNEC

Last fri 14th Aug 09, was at SNEC, appt with Dr Bobby. While waiting for my turn at the laser centre, I was very anxious but it wasn't my 1st time having laser done. I used the breathing technique which Kevin taught me but it didn't help. Thoughts are racing in my mind.

No appetite and grouchy

This morning, woke up at 7 a.m feeling very grouchy and wanting to have more sleep. Feeling very headache & giddy too besides the sharp pressured ringing sound on my right ear.

Called up central appointment this morning and was told there's no earlier date available. Hmm..forget about it then. Anyway, tomorrow going to SNEC for eye laser and inform Dr Bobby about my tinnitus too.

Am like procrastinating today, very sleepy and not much appetite. Going to make instant porridge instead and take a nap. Hopefully, to wake up fresh later on.

Companion for lunch

As I was approaching canteen, saw Dolly and waved to her "Hi". Dolly said she'll joining me for lunch. I ordered char siew wanton kway teow soup $2 and she had western food - brunch set.

Initially, Dolly wanted me to join her and her friend at the table near the canteen entrance but I just don't want to. Those bowl collector aunties and uncles kept laughing out loud and said I looked like one of the actress. I was wearing my cap and jacket. I hate those gossiping thou am not biased against their job. The way they laughed really pissed me off! I just wanna have my lunch peacefully.

Dolly talked to me lotsa things and even quote incident to caution me of people around me. She was afraid I lunch alone but it's really fine with me. I dislike crowds and talking over the meals. Dolly even said I lost a lot of weight compared to last time. Hmm...but I gained a lot of weight.

Hurting ownself?

On sunday night, couldn't sleep well. Sub-consciously, I could feel that I was pulling my hair hard, screaming out loud, tossing in bed and poked myself with my fingernail on thigh. The next day, I was very dizzy & headache.

Visit to Apex Harmony Lodge on Sat

Managed to get Jason whom is my cab driver to work to drive us to Apex Harmony Lodge as it is a long journey from home. Dad couldn't recognise me as I was wearing mask. Took out my mask when we're sitted at the lounge near dad's ward.

Elated to see dad though he slimmed down a lot. Bought him his favourite food and seeing him enjoying it. When it's time to leave, I was too emotioned & broke down hugging daddy, telling him how much I missed him.

Jason waiting outside already, while inside, my tears rolled down once again. No appetite to eat anything after that.