My new medicine - Topamax

Catalogue of side effects for the anticonvulsant Topamax - generic name Topiramate - which may be prescribed as a mood stabilizer in the management of bipolar disorder.

Appt today

today went see Dr Lee...asked me why I need to see her earlier as everytime my mood also very low. I told her it's not I wanted to but the A&E doctor actually insisted I see a psychiatrist on tues. After which, he asked which pschiatrist am seeing, so I told him Dr Lee Huei Yen. Doctor suggested seeing her today. So Dr Lee smiled.


I mentioed could be I knew my dad's condition deteriorated very much thats why my mood very low & then I can blast for no reason which I couldn't control myself. I brought up the matter of adding mood stabilizer since she mentioned to me much earlier on. Dr Lee prescribed Topiramate 25mg & told me it's very low dosage, to try for 3 weeks 1st thou it may not help initially.

Supposingly Florence Fong - medical social worker (MSW whom saw her yesterday only) called Dr Lee & informed her that since I don't benefit from psychotherapy with snr psychologist Kevin Beck & that I have counsellor at LFC & art therapist, need not go SGH for so many appts.

Informed Florence am seeing counsellor & latest arrangement art therapy at LFC which is near my house. Florence cited since don't benefit from psychotherapy & nothing much, might as well I let Dr Lee know directly but I told her wait Dr Lee won't like it as she's the one whom personally arranged Kevin to have psychotherapy session with me.

Dr Lee told me she's fine with it (thou sounded not happy) out of the blue that if I needn't see Kevin. I brought up my counsellor at LFC even gave me th CBT form to do as homework. When I shared with Dr Lee my drawings, wow...I like the expressions on her face...hehe She kept looking thru it. She will be seeing me on 12 Aug.

Art therapy

I got email confirmation from my art therapist, will be starting next wed alternative weds evening for six mths. Looking fwd to it.

Argh!! A&E dr wanted me to see psychiatrist ytd

when I went for profusely sweating which aint salty, S.O.B, dizziness, low BP, diarrhea...but Dr Poh asked me whether I feel like killing myself or low mood. Told him my mood's been low & he immediately asked if I wanted to see psychiatrist at that point of time which I dun want!! I saw a skinny female psychiatrist walking thru n fro to an indian man...seems like Dr Ng!!

Then Dr Poh asked if wanna see my psychiatrist earlier, so I agreed lor, wait he want to ward me how? Appt letter wrote, patient request to see Dr Lee HY earlier...duhz..

Shocking news!!

Japan mother, 34 'killed' her 5 yr old child after divorce & moved to new apartment, this is really shocking but probably the mother is suffering from depression.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20100714/tap-japan-crime-child-d1078a1.html

Updates

I was on mc fri, thurs night, went to see GP. Happened she also knw Dr Colleen whom is her classmate's sister. I was utterly fatigue, sweating non-stop n sweat is not salty even. Something is very wrong!!

Went over to LFC to meet my art therapist Jun Lee whom Winny Lu referred me to as additional to aid in my recovery. Jun is very thin, long hair wearing specs. Inside the room, Jun told me to fill up the questionaires, like rating what I like or dislike art materials, how well I like myself, what I hope to gain from the session...2nd page, I was tpo draw as quickly as possible something with title & asked me to share why I drew the picture.

Jun told me that ometimes, she may challenge me the timing & use materials I dun like. I cautioned her sometimes I can get very angry like stepping onto 'di lei'. Jun asked me whether I will get violent, I dunno for sure too. Wanted me to let her know if I am gg to get violent..haha...

Once a pax violent will let the other pax knw meh?

Jun went out & came back, informing me Winny wanted to see me later at 4p.m. This time, another room with nice cosy sofa which I made myself at home. I slipped out of my slippers & cross-legged on the sofa. Talking about my dad's condition, I couldn't control my emotion & I was in fact too emotional, that I broke down...argh...

Daddy's condition

Mother visited dad today & was informed to prepare myself mentally that anytime dad will leave us. His condition deteriorated very badly. However, I just couldn't hold back my tears...afraid my depression will sink much deeper.

How about a Donald Duck for a change

OUCH! IT hurts to have MIGRAINE attacks this morn

which is very disabling...I msged my snr mgr taking leave to rest at home. Woke up at around 11.30am, had packed lunch & started on my drawings.

Feddup unable to draw faerie buring her face!!

Am so lucky

to won myself the NIKE jacket from Health Xchange quiz!!