7th Nov 09, I was to be at HPB to attend prize presentation which I won myself wii Nintendo, cold storage voucher & spice garden walk with morning gourmet & also invited to give talk in mandarin. OMG! I told Dr Tan Hong Chang that my mandarin is 'pte ltd' but insisted going for it, hence I just agreed since they told me it's perfectly alright to mix. haha
Upon reaching, saw familiar faces there, staffs at SGH diabetes ctr. Was received by Celestine whom showed us the way in. Roland Choo came to give me support, really appreciated it. He's a director of his own company dealing in water treatment & helping out at Taman Jurong MPS.
During tea-break at around 3pm, I had hypo symptom again & I headed to sofa & quickly had sweets 1st before having finger food. Before I went on stage to give talk, another episode of it. I tried to steady myself & had hard time looking at my script due to lightings & my vision. OMG! I had hard time speaking in mandarin & I ended up speaking in English, lol...
Aiya, better than the doctor whom Mandarin is worse off than me. Said I go squash & ballet when it's badminton, pool and belly dancing. keke..
I took the opportunity to thank Mr & Mrs Tharman, Roland Choo, SFH social workers and volunteers at Taman Jurong MPS besides my endocrinologist Dr Tan Hong Chang & DNE Eunice Liow.
What an experience! Roland gave us a lift home while he fetched his dad at Bukit Merah.
Stay tuned as I will be uploading some photos taken at HPB publim forum talk. Such coincidence, the photographer I knew him whom took photos for MP at Taman Jurong.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Depressed over vertigo, dizziness, nausea...
More than 3 weeks, been having vertigo, dizziness, nausea & seeing flashes of dots in which I ended up A&E few times requiring 'coconut juice'. Brushed aside gastritis. Vertigo itself already making me very depressed about it. The feeling of fatigue, over exhausted is TERRIBLE!! My ENT appointment is on 12 N0v which is next week. Argh!!
Monday, October 26, 2009
Won WII Nintendo, cold storage voucher & spice garden w/breakfast - "LEAD" Diabetes Competition
Surprised to find out it was my endocrinologist Dr Tan HC who called me up. I came in 1st in the "LEAD" Diabetes write-up competition & won myself WII Nintendo, cold storage voucher & spice garden with breakfast. Yeah!!
I was invited to HPB on 7th Nov 09 for prize presentation & invited to give public forum talk on how I managed diabetes but in mandarin. What a challenge when my mandarin is "private limited". Haha..I'll give it a go!
Dr Tan HC said:" Oh yes, because you wrote in English." hehehe
I do my best in translating what I've wrote to mandarin. Surely Jen can do it!
I was invited to HPB on 7th Nov 09 for prize presentation & invited to give public forum talk on how I managed diabetes but in mandarin. What a challenge when my mandarin is "private limited". Haha..I'll give it a go!
Dr Tan HC said:" Oh yes, because you wrote in English." hehehe
I do my best in translating what I've wrote to mandarin. Surely Jen can do it!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Terrible Migraine for days
ARGH!! Having trobbling migraines for days already, since then, vision saw some dots flashes of lights and slight diarhea. I could hear my neck cracking sound. I'm feeling very terrible that I want to end my life!! Hands icy cold again.
Monday, October 12, 2009
TJ Light Up Lantern Festival 11 Oct 09
Last night, my mother & myself went to participate in Taman Jurong Light Up Lantern Festival. Mrs Tharman was there too. Lion Dance show by Wenyang and Taman Jurong was fantastic, however the guy from Wenyang seems to be seriously injured when doing a somersault high up to ground level. Took photo with Mrs Tharman & was elated to see her there. We won 4th prize in the lucky draw - a rice & steam cooker.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Back to fluoxetine 20mg
Today waited quite long at clinic A to see Dr Lee. This time break record, 25 mins leh! I told Dr Lee my concerns about my recent increased weight of about 6kgs within 2 weeks & I just can't stop bingeing.
I binge when am over stressed, bored or stomach feeling empty. Dr Lee wrote 'love' letter to Dr Tan to refer me to LIFE centre for diet counselling & exercise prescription. Then don't know what Dr Lee mumbled about whether she will be/ won't be seeing me by then. kekeke
Dr Lee cited that I didn't eat enough and must have my 3 proper meals if not sure end up bingeing. Mentioned she even eat lotsa meat and fish, aiya, Dr Lee, no matter how much you eat, you also slim one leh. Said she 'jiat buay ba' if she were to take 1/2 or 1/4 bowl of rice.
Hmm..Dr Lee is director of LIFE centre, how come still require to highlight to Dr Tan to refer.
I asked whether can take a photo with Dr Lee, she smiles and turned down due to hospital policy. True or not? Later she said it's her own private decision not to take photo with patients, afraid ended up in facebook or somewhere and photo got edited. Duhz, me won't do such nonsense stuffs..anyway, respect her decision lor.
I binge when am over stressed, bored or stomach feeling empty. Dr Lee wrote 'love' letter to Dr Tan to refer me to LIFE centre for diet counselling & exercise prescription. Then don't know what Dr Lee mumbled about whether she will be/ won't be seeing me by then. kekeke
Dr Lee cited that I didn't eat enough and must have my 3 proper meals if not sure end up bingeing. Mentioned she even eat lotsa meat and fish, aiya, Dr Lee, no matter how much you eat, you also slim one leh. Said she 'jiat buay ba' if she were to take 1/2 or 1/4 bowl of rice.
Hmm..Dr Lee is director of LIFE centre, how come still require to highlight to Dr Tan to refer.
I asked whether can take a photo with Dr Lee, she smiles and turned down due to hospital policy. True or not? Later she said it's her own private decision not to take photo with patients, afraid ended up in facebook or somewhere and photo got edited. Duhz, me won't do such nonsense stuffs..anyway, respect her decision lor.
Friday, October 2, 2009
17 sep
17 sep, Dr Lee saw me. Before me, there's a student with her mother. Expected, her mother was being kicked outta consultation room. However mother & I saw how she treated the student so nicely and smile at her. Dr Lee came out, obviously, she saw my mother but pretended as if nothing.
The student's mother was very angry and that she doesn't want her daughter to be under Dr Lee at LIFE centre. The counter staff said eh, they don't know, told the mother to call on that day to change doctor.
When it was my turn to go in, Dr Lee was very black face & said in very fierce tone asking me what I want her to do? To take me off medications? hee..I nodded and later she prescribed me efexor xr and diazepam.
Later managedtomake Dr Lee laughed. hee
Wah! Taking efexor, I had extreme nausea, dizziness that mades me feel like collasping, headache and blur vision. I took myself off it for 2 days & I felt so much better. Aiyo, like that how to work.
Next appt with Dr Lee, wanting to be back on fluvoxetine better since much lesser side effects thou it can cause me to be very 'floaty' in the day.
The student's mother was very angry and that she doesn't want her daughter to be under Dr Lee at LIFE centre. The counter staff said eh, they don't know, told the mother to call on that day to change doctor.
When it was my turn to go in, Dr Lee was very black face & said in very fierce tone asking me what I want her to do? To take me off medications? hee..I nodded and later she prescribed me efexor xr and diazepam.
Later managedtomake Dr Lee laughed. hee
Wah! Taking efexor, I had extreme nausea, dizziness that mades me feel like collasping, headache and blur vision. I took myself off it for 2 days & I felt so much better. Aiyo, like that how to work.
Next appt with Dr Lee, wanting to be back on fluvoxetine better since much lesser side effects thou it can cause me to be very 'floaty' in the day.
Nothing but nightmares & dreams
Does efexor causes nightmares and dreams even early morning? Haiz, what kinda antidepressant. Causing me nausea, headache, extreme dizziness that makes me feel like collasping & blur vision. How to concentrate at work like that!
Laptop harddisk crashed on 29 sep
During afternoon, laptop kept on hanging even after continuous rebooting it. Brought to smc & the test confirmed my suspicious - harddisk crashed. Need to be 'hospitalised' for 3 days, earliest able to get back will be on thurs late afternoon.
Tues night, msged mgr citing laptop down, might as well take leave next day which was wed to settle some personal matters. Know what he replied? U need not stay away, you can still help out at OA for less complicated cases. I hacked care, all my requests coming from laptop, how to help OA side when it's even much more stressful than laptop.
Thurs back at office, seeing lotsa last day service prompters when most of it doesn't have earlier on prompters. Since am not in, be it on leave or medical leave, why no one to handle such urgent cases, must wait till I come back. Morning TY said to clear immediately those with last day & staff leaving, not saying posting not important. Hence, I replied same sentiments.
Whatever, same problems always sufacing again & again. Am really tired of all these.
Wed night, an indian man came knocking on our door asking for Elton whom is my younger brother not staying with us anymore. That indian man kept asking my mother lotsa questions & wanted her to sign. Nah, my mother not going to sign anything. you want, just take our lives. My younger brother didn't stay with us for so long & I didn't get to see him at all! What the hack he's doing outside. Don't bring your debts become my problem!
I had enough problems already and because of this, I broke down & was very agitated & extremely depressed. When taking efexor, wonder why I can be upset for nothing and twice so depressed when stressed out at work!
Tues night, msged mgr citing laptop down, might as well take leave next day which was wed to settle some personal matters. Know what he replied? U need not stay away, you can still help out at OA for less complicated cases. I hacked care, all my requests coming from laptop, how to help OA side when it's even much more stressful than laptop.
Thurs back at office, seeing lotsa last day service prompters when most of it doesn't have earlier on prompters. Since am not in, be it on leave or medical leave, why no one to handle such urgent cases, must wait till I come back. Morning TY said to clear immediately those with last day & staff leaving, not saying posting not important. Hence, I replied same sentiments.
Whatever, same problems always sufacing again & again. Am really tired of all these.
Wed night, an indian man came knocking on our door asking for Elton whom is my younger brother not staying with us anymore. That indian man kept asking my mother lotsa questions & wanted her to sign. Nah, my mother not going to sign anything. you want, just take our lives. My younger brother didn't stay with us for so long & I didn't get to see him at all! What the hack he's doing outside. Don't bring your debts become my problem!
I had enough problems already and because of this, I broke down & was very agitated & extremely depressed. When taking efexor, wonder why I can be upset for nothing and twice so depressed when stressed out at work!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Depression: The Misunderstood Illness
Curiousity got me to lay hands on Dr Leslie book about depression. Wanting to get some answers from it but yet not fulfilled. Anti-depressent medications labelled with "poison" but may not totally take a person life, aint it? At most, detroy kidney/ liver or any other vital organs. How about if combine all kinds of medications, will it work?
I looked up to people who actually drank detergent took rats poison and even those who jump down from buildings. In fact, this week, before my appt with Dr Lee, at work, got the most horrifying auto suicide of jumping down from my workplace, just like when I had my very 1st suicide thoughts last yr nov.
Am tired of living already. Maybe someday, I might carry out. No one can say for sure.
I looked up to people who actually drank detergent took rats poison and even those who jump down from buildings. In fact, this week, before my appt with Dr Lee, at work, got the most horrifying auto suicide of jumping down from my workplace, just like when I had my very 1st suicide thoughts last yr nov.
Am tired of living already. Maybe someday, I might carry out. No one can say for sure.
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