Monday, January 4, 2010

17th Dec 09 - Suicidal thots came

17th Dec 09 morning, I was still alright till I felt stressed & got a call from HR asking for medical report. I couldn't hold myself any longer as suicidal thots came into my mind constantly. I msged Eunice but I didn't know she's on leave thou. She gave a call to me & advised me to go SGH A&E, the most warded for 2-3 days rather to risk myself getting hurt. I could hear her worrying voice over the phone. Eunice even called up  my mother to accompany me to A&E.

I was seen by a MO 1st then he referred me to see psychiatrist where I was interviewed by Dr Sandy. Expected to ask me the same question whether I wanna be warded to rest for few days, what to do except to accept. Immediately, ward bed arranged for me & was sent to Ward 46A - psychiatry ward, where else?

This is the 2nd time I was warded, pls!! No more of it as I don't like being warded in such an isolated ward which makes me feel imprisioned! All belongings will be kept by them & I asked my mother to bring home for me most of it.

During my stay one wee morning, suicidal thots came & I had actually unplugged the cable trying to strangle myself but placed it back. Sighz, I was thinking of Mrs Tharman too besides my mother. The next day, I don't feel like having breakfast when Van asked me to join them. I broke down & doctors came to see me & nurse trying to pull me out of bed. Haha..she's so thin, how to?

All the gals are so perfectly thin & am so envy of their nice figure. How I wish am that slim. During my inpatient, I've lost 4 kgs!! whahaha

Seen by Dr Ng Beng Yong whom's caring & noticed my acnes & prescribed Differin for it. When Dr Joshua from MP's office knw about my hospitalisation, he called Mrs Tharman who was away on holiday & he called me up, telling me Mrs Tharmam is flying back to sg & he called up SGH & ward nurses to take good care of me. I deeply appreciated Dr Joshua's nice gesture besides Mrs Tharman.

Dr Ng told me on 23rd dec morning, during the interview that I can be discharged! I'm elated as it's before Christmas eve!! hee

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