For past 2 mths, been experiencing night terrors of me being sexually assaulted, rape or naked! This is very DISTURBING! Reminds me of when I lived in old hse, bathroom door is a metal piece with a stretch of space exposed at the hinge side. One day, I saw my younger brother (5 yrs my junior, he's in kindergarden) peeping at me while I was in shower! I screamed & told my mother but she won't believe me!! I was being peeped umpteen times till finally, I had to use my bathroom towel to cover up at the door hinge. Atlas, my mother caught him doing so while she was showering too..that was only when mother choose to believe me.
Younger brother used to sleep with us in a room, guess what he did to me? He gropped my breasts & snapped off my bra while I was soundly asleep which woke me up from my sleep. It was horrible experience with hvg such a younger brother.
When he's in his teens (before he moved out of the hse), he took my panties to wear! I was curious as to why my panties suddenly not enough. We checked his wardrobe, to find my panties stained with his ejaculated semen!! Aww...........SICKENING!
Before I turned 16, I was molested by a woman which I later got to knw she's a lesbian. Thinking back, how naive & innocent I was at that time. We met thru internet, (I used to hang at internet cafe) meet up for movie & coffee. The day before was hvg flu but managed to meet her up at tiong bahru plaza GV. I was told she's 30 yrs oldbut whenI saw her, she's like >45yrs old. She worked in ZOUK as housekeeper, her name card stated there.
During the movie, I fell asleep as I was very drowsy after taken the flu medicine. After which, felt something carassing my hands & went beneath my sweater, skirt! Pelvic & down there was touched!! Woke up from shocked!! She dared to tell me how soft I was to her touch!! I quickly excused myself to ladies but she followed me right behind. Even asked why I leave her alone there. I made excuses I wanted to go home & she still mentioned she wanted to go out with me some other day again. Deep in my heart, NO! NOT AGAIN, NEVER!! I was so scared that I didn't let my mother know. I didn't know what to do at that time. -_-!!
2nd time, this time round happened at Tiong Bahru Plaza again! It was few days later after I was newly discharged from p.ward. I went there to have lunch. Before I approached the escalator to level 2, I could felt someone v close right behind me& the very next moment, a man's hands touching my side breasts!! I freaked out, turn to look at the man. He's tall around my height, greasy hair, wearing something like uniform of a cleaner. He apologized & walked toward the gents. I was stunned & broke down which later I made report to the information counter & was told to go Cantoment to make police report.
Weeks later, I was told the security camera didn't filmed anyone near me! How could this be!! Unless there's no camera nexr that area!! They didnt catch the molester!! I was very angry!!
Till now, I dare not go for r/s thou I wanted to have someone to love me. Last time, a cisco guard intro his fren who worked at watsons warehouse 35 yrs old, juzt a few yrs my senior. Exchanged hps, I let him to call me when he had passed my sms test. But the very first time he called me,he asked me which masque I bought from watson, is it the one for massaging breasts!! SICKENING guy!! Still wanted to bring me out for jap cuisine, NO WAY! I ended the phone immediately & next day, told the cisco guard. Cisco guard apologized for the incidence & that he didn't know his long time fren is like this pervert.
Remember one nice handsome guy who is rich but much younger than I am, asked me to be his gf but as he knw my background, he respected my decision. He always bring me to restaurants & even when I told him I cant accept his love. Asked if I could give him a hug & a kiss, I allowed. We parted but still keep in touch. After we parted, one wkend, I was walking at bugis the other side where fish n co was, he saw me there!! I seldom walked that direction, it was like SO COINCIDENCE!! He gave me a treat but I shared with him.
The next time was we met at IPAM!! The beautiful colleagues asking him, how he got to know me..haha He's such a prince charming, no gals can resist it. He did told me before he got lotsa gfs gg to his hse. Eh, honesty doesn't mean anything, it's more like, see, I told you, I've lotsa gfs. Aha...
Maybe becoz of these, I could have confusion in identity?
Am really very fatigue, headache, painful...argh...
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