10th Jun 09

During thurs afternoon, I asked snr mgr whether have she tried contacting my psychiatrist & snr psychologist up. Her reply was that she's too busy to call them up and that she tasked HR to do so as they're more professional.

In the 1st place, when I agreed, it's because I trusted you snr mgr that you called personally and that she had intention to go with me to ask from Dr Lee about my condition during my next appointment.

I was extremely STRESSED out as it's HR who will be calling. What they ever wanted is the medical record which was mentioned to me umpteen times for it. Brushing off with the reason that they wanted to help me in my recovery.

I tried contacting Nana from psychiatry department, Dr Lee's secretary but happened to be on medical leave. It was Yuanna who took the call and I asked whether it's kept confidential. She assured me that it is unless, with my written consention.

Already when I was warded last year, 26th Nov 08. Different versions, from mouth to mouth, whole company know about my condition already which upsets me a lot! With that, causes misunderstanding and mis-communication too that at times, mgr taken it too personally against me.

I can't stop people from spreading in which I mentioned to Deputy Director that my ex-xolleagues also saw me at lift lobby and canteen. The way I walk (jerky and extremely slow) with no facial expressions (sad - depressed).

Then I was molested by a guy, whom around in his 40s - 50s near the escalator at level one. His right hand touching my right side of breast and left hand on my left arm. I turned around, seeing his smirky smiling face. He apologised twice while his hands didn't moved away still. After that, he walked away heading towards the gents and I took a clear look at him. Green shirt, dark blue pants with greasy hair.

I went to have some porridge as I was diabetic, couldn't miss meal times. I broke down and no appetite at all. I approached the customer service lady and crying non-stop. Sms-ed my colleagues and bosses. She called security guards and advised her to contact police. They took down my statement and I even demostrated how the guy molested me.

Back to office to pack my stuffs, Saras asked whether I needed companion, I wanted but unsure whether mgr approved. Even male Executive Thee Yeong also mentioned to have someone accompany me but mgr didn't even say so.

Was told to go to HQ cantoment police to make police report. No female policewoman around, except the muslim police guy who took down my statement and told me to demostrate how the guy molested me THRICE!

Am already traumatised by the incidence already. Reminded me of my past when I was molested by a woman much older than I am when I was 17 years old. Why all these happened to me?

I know it's not my fault but it really takes time to heal. Said is easier than done. How to forget totally?