Panic Disorder and Anxiety

Thurs evening, 11th Jun, went to see GP who is my god-sister. She told me I've mild panic disorder and anxiety, hence, Xanax was prescribed to me along with Gingko Biloba 40mg for my blood circulation.

I had similar attack when I was at SGH on 4th Jun, while waiting for my turn, suddenly, I was gasping for breathe, very dizzy and feel like vomiting too. As if am dying, feel like giving up. Mother was with me, told me, even if I don't think of her, also must think of Mdm Jane and Dr Sarani who dotes on me too. Afterwhich, felt relaxed a bit and I remained calm when Dr Lee pressed my queue number to see me. Still having breathing difficulty. When Dr Lee saw my mother pushing me in wheelchair (too dizzy & no strength to walk on my own), her face turned black & raised her voice telling my mother to go out.

Inside the room, Dr Lee in her raising tone said:"Unwell, go see your GP. Why still come?" I told her I saw GP last evening already and that when I reached SGH, was still ok. After that, she toned down.

GP suspected pneumonia. Frequently temp ok but feverish whole body with cold and cough (allergy) along with difficulty breathing. Advised me to inform any SGH doctors during next appointment to have detailed check-up.

Since during the past 2 weeks, having suicidal thoughts, Dr Lee asked me whether I wanted to take a few days rest but SGH psychiatry ward 46A is fulled and will have to refer me to IMH. I queried her:"Do I need to be warded?" She replied saying:"Well, I don't know. You decide."

I told her I don't want then she asked me why. I insisted on not going to IMH. Dr Lee questioned me, how I want them to help me. But I've no idea as I'm unable to think of anything at that moment, mind was blank. She told me she increased my medication fluvoxamine to 100mg and monitor my progress on 18th Jun 09.

Next day, my left ear posing problem, very painful. Visited god-sister and was told no infection. I shared my resume and blogs with god-sister and told her about having re-edit for more than 2o times for my resume. That, god-sister told me to stop doing that, as it's OCD.

Given Ivy leaf extract for cough and medication for nose. Ear still very irrritated. Was lucky to get a bottle of ear drop from chinese medical hall when the uncle wanted to close shop for the day as it was Sunday. My left ear felt better now thou still pain is still existing.