For past 3 weeks, feeling very depressed and afraid it's recurrence of depression. It's very disabling that I couldn't concentrate at work. Thoughts of jumping off building and even slashing my wrist came haunting me which is torturing me. Struggling with inner self. Either couldn't fall asleep or woke up at night or been sleeping for ultra long hrs which ended don't feel like waking up at all. Even everynow and then, will cry also. Very headache and dizzy. Even thought of overdosing on few medications. -_-!!
Yesterday appt with Kevin, snr psychologist. He sounded angry also when he finds me very tense and that he won't start hypnotherapy. I just couldn't relax and even when I tried using the breathing technique, I got choked and uncomfortable. He encourages me to do so often. He even mentioned he's also very stressed out at LIFE ctr and he did exercises. I do exercises but still not able to feel that good. Sighz..
Though appt with Dr Lee is one month's time but seems very fast as it's just next week.
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