Recent visit to snr psychologist & GP, both advised me to be more assertive towards my mother and if she's unhappy, that's her problem. Pointing out that the fact am being too close to my mother, ended up to be co-dependance and that they're not sure when it started.
If mother is happy, I'm happy. However, if mother is unhappy, am unhappy. If there's conflict, I'll hurt deep down inside too. That explains why I have depression.
Like recent incidence, I bought G2000 tops for $26 each & 2 FILA polo tee for $19.90 each. Mother would keep asking me why I bought the FILA polo tee when it's not as class nor nice as G2000 tops. Citing even if am angry, she also wanted to point out no point buying FILA polo tee when it cost $19.90.
However, I voiced out my opinion that I like it. Not that I must wear so corporate wear to work daily as I like varieties. Over this conflict, it hurts me deeply and ended up self-inflicting harm myself, penetrating sharp fingernails on my arms to ease pain.
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