Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Patella subluxation
Left knee has Patella subluxation - http://www.pattstrap.com/patellar-subluxation.php & right ankle mild instability.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Online self-help therapy
Managed to find some online self-help therapy, hope it helps those in need. Do try out & bring along with you during your next appointment with your psychiatrist and/ or psychologist.
http://www.get.gg/freedownloads2.htm
http://www.get.gg/freedownloads2.htm
Monday, December 19, 2011
Extremely cold
These few days, weather been extremely cold...freezing at night. Oh...what a nice weather to slumber in bed without having to wake up so early.
Guessing why been so long didnt blog, oh well, just dont feel like it.
Life's stagnant...how to work hard to get back on track. Well, someone has to gimme a chance by hiring me part-time, getting my confidence/ self-esteem back. Also up my social status rather than being a hermit at home.
Guessing why been so long didnt blog, oh well, just dont feel like it.
Life's stagnant...how to work hard to get back on track. Well, someone has to gimme a chance by hiring me part-time, getting my confidence/ self-esteem back. Also up my social status rather than being a hermit at home.
Friday, December 16, 2011
Heads up for trains disruptions
Maybe consider hvg 'black box' installed inside MRT, whatever happened, able to retrieve data for investigation. SMRT, can u show the public where is the 'standby ventilation system'? How wld u handle passengers with panic disorder/ anxiety disorders (further worsening their condition - medical compensation for hvg causing distress to them?), physical disability in wheelchair/ leg problem & elderly (expect them to walk such long distance on the railway?)
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Do catch "I see You: A Caregiver Story: 2" on Ch5, 1 Dec thurs at 7.30p.m.
Catch this programme "I See You: A Caregiver Story: 2" at Ch5, 7.30 p.m, 1 Dec, Thurs. It's about caregiver for mental illness.
http://www.todayonline.com/Health/EDC111108-0000022/A-voice-tells-me-to-jump-off-a-building
Whichever kind of mental illness, it's very distressing & taking a toil to both the caregier & the patients themselves. Support & love from others contribute a lot to the recovery.
http://www.todayonline.com/Health/EDC111108-0000022/A-voice-tells-me-to-jump-off-a-building
Whichever kind of mental illness, it's very distressing & taking a toil to both the caregier & the patients themselves. Support & love from others contribute a lot to the recovery.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Physiotherapy
Tdy had physiotherapy, focused on my left knee. Physiotherapist after making physical assessment on both of my knees, she told me that even my right knee is hvg the same problem too & that my strength is fairly gd. :p
Need strengthening exercises too...ok Onz.
So long didn't exercise, now at home using ice pack, here ache, there ache...ouch ouch...
Tmr still need to go volunteer at Marina for balloon sculpturing event. A big event orh...
Need strengthening exercises too...ok Onz.
So long didn't exercise, now at home using ice pack, here ache, there ache...ouch ouch...
Tmr still need to go volunteer at Marina for balloon sculpturing event. A big event orh...
Art therapy
Thurs art therapy was a good one. Therapist instructed me to draw a flower of my own & afterwhich, to write some words on it. Art therapist wanted me to read aloud what I've written on it but I was too shy to do so.
Art therapist read it & told me that she felt so touched by my words & asked if she can keep it.hee
Sometimes, I really dun have answers to the questions. I wish I had the answers too.
Art therapist read it & told me that she felt so touched by my words & asked if she can keep it.hee
Sometimes, I really dun have answers to the questions. I wish I had the answers too.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Youth In Mind - Raising Awarness
http://youthinmind.sg/olb_aboutwmhd.aspx#aboutolb
Details extracted from website:
In line with the World Federation of Mental Health's vision, "One Last Breath" was conceptualized by CHAT as the theme of this year's WMHD campaign to raise awareness amongst youths and young adults about suicide prevention.
Though we might never fully comprehend the reasons behind each suicidal act, we do believe that through open communication and acceptance of people as they are- we can help. As such, "One Last Breath..." seeks to explore the dilemma an individual faces when confronted with thoughts of suicide; and what might pass through their minds of words left unspoken. Some of these unspoken words touch upon Love. Regret. Gratitude. Guilt. Freedom. All of which seeks simply to be understood.
"One Last Breath" also serves as a reminder to those that seek to end their lives, that there are people out there who care and are willing to listen. Often, people do curb their suicide attempts when reminded of the words of encouragement from someone. These words don't just represent the messages that do follow from friends and loved ones, but also to put us in their shoes- what might one wish to hear before they take that one last breath? Remember, words from that one person might make a difference... maybe even yours.
Meanwhile, if you're interested in learning more about suicide, do visit our website here."
Details extracted from website:
In line with the World Federation of Mental Health's vision, "One Last Breath" was conceptualized by CHAT as the theme of this year's WMHD campaign to raise awareness amongst youths and young adults about suicide prevention.
Though we might never fully comprehend the reasons behind each suicidal act, we do believe that through open communication and acceptance of people as they are- we can help. As such, "One Last Breath..." seeks to explore the dilemma an individual faces when confronted with thoughts of suicide; and what might pass through their minds of words left unspoken. Some of these unspoken words touch upon Love. Regret. Gratitude. Guilt. Freedom. All of which seeks simply to be understood.
"One Last Breath" also serves as a reminder to those that seek to end their lives, that there are people out there who care and are willing to listen. Often, people do curb their suicide attempts when reminded of the words of encouragement from someone. These words don't just represent the messages that do follow from friends and loved ones, but also to put us in their shoes- what might one wish to hear before they take that one last breath? Remember, words from that one person might make a difference... maybe even yours.
Meanwhile, if you're interested in learning more about suicide, do visit our website here."
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Kindness, Caring...where has these gone?
Ppl sitting at the Priority Seat, young ones & students dare to give me a stare even whem they saw am hvg braces supports on for my knee & ankle w/o even offering the seat.
There's one kind china man whom gave up his seat for me but yet another china man rushed to take my seat but we ticked him off to give me back my seat. Where has all the kindness gone to?
Have anyone of u notice the flower commercial 'Thank you' inside MRT?
There's one kind china man whom gave up his seat for me but yet another china man rushed to take my seat but we ticked him off to give me back my seat. Where has all the kindness gone to?
Have anyone of u notice the flower commercial 'Thank you' inside MRT?
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Patellofemoral knee
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001488/
Patellofemoral knee requires one to have Patella Brace. Didn't know my old injury fron bicycle incident could accumulate over the years to cause this problem. :(
Patellofemoral knee requires one to have Patella Brace. Didn't know my old injury fron bicycle incident could accumulate over the years to cause this problem. :(
Monday, November 14, 2011
Requires Patella Brace & Ankle Support Orthosis
Today appointment at Orthopaedic Clinic at SGH, X-ray shown that my left knee joint is out of alignment & right ankle prominent ligament tear. Doctor prescribed there's requirement of the Patella Brace & Ankle Support Brace Orthosis on top of physiotherapy for the neck & ankle. I've made appointment to meet up MSW to see if they can help cover the cost as it's very dear.
In Cantonese - "Lat Tao Lat Guat".
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In Cantonese - "Lat Tao Lat Guat".
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Sunday, November 6, 2011
Is it 'voices' or just thoughts?
Last nite, hvg relapse...wondering is it voices or just thots - useless, worthless & why shld I live. Kept telling me to die. Cldnt slp whole nite at all. Well, I need to tell this to my art therapist on this coming thurs appt. It's very hard struggling & it's worse than on 31 Oct.
So tired after fighting & was so sick today that I couldn't eat nor drink.
So tired after fighting & was so sick today that I couldn't eat nor drink.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Something to review
LIFE ctr consultations rms shd hv video recording to the best interest for both parties - 'psychologist' & 'patients' so that psychiarist knws how the sessions are being conducted. Felt extremely wrongfully wronged, extremely angry & disappointed.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
What the hell!!
Psychologist & MSW, if u dun hv the confidence then in the 1st place, dun take up my case. Dunno what the 2 of you told pdoc, wth! Cant carry out ur job nvm but dun anyhow twist words to pdoc.
It's important for the therapist & me as the patient to 'click'. It's very torturing. Supposingly session is an hr but on 2 occassions, when the patient before me 'cuts into my time', psychologist only had less than 30 mins with me!! I don't even gain anything fm psychological sessions, keep telling me sometimes, psychologist loves to play in the rain...Why tell me all abt psychologist personal stuffs?!
Just becoz I told psychologist I dun like psychologist, dunno what psychologist told my pdoc!! WTH!
Dun trust anyone anymore...Felt so BETRAYED by psychologist!! I HATE TAT PSYCHOLOGIST!!!!!!
MSW told me to work at KFC collecting trays & throw rubbish even though he asked me whether I'm afraid of dirtiness. I told him I'm very afraid of dirtiness & that I have nose allergy. Did he tell this to my pdoc? Keep telling me to be 'obedient' at work even if being bullied at work or ticked off by colleagues, anything just tell him.
MSW even kept on asking why that day I wrote email to pdoc about the incident whereby he didn't meet me on the suppose decided appointment. Anything need not tell my pdoc, just tell him.
It's important for the therapist & me as the patient to 'click'. It's very torturing. Supposingly session is an hr but on 2 occassions, when the patient before me 'cuts into my time', psychologist only had less than 30 mins with me!! I don't even gain anything fm psychological sessions, keep telling me sometimes, psychologist loves to play in the rain...Why tell me all abt psychologist personal stuffs?!
Just becoz I told psychologist I dun like psychologist, dunno what psychologist told my pdoc!! WTH!
Dun trust anyone anymore...Felt so BETRAYED by psychologist!! I HATE TAT PSYCHOLOGIST!!!!!!
MSW told me to work at KFC collecting trays & throw rubbish even though he asked me whether I'm afraid of dirtiness. I told him I'm very afraid of dirtiness & that I have nose allergy. Did he tell this to my pdoc? Keep telling me to be 'obedient' at work even if being bullied at work or ticked off by colleagues, anything just tell him.
MSW even kept on asking why that day I wrote email to pdoc about the incident whereby he didn't meet me on the suppose decided appointment. Anything need not tell my pdoc, just tell him.
Monday, October 24, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Can't work in environment with viruses
2nd day at work, 18 Oct, was on morning & afternoon shift - (8.30am to 12.30pm, 2.30 to 5pm). There were many patients, observed my 2 colleagues like extremely busy & stressed (in Canto 'Dou Xie Lot Hai'), couldn't do anything to help them except to register & retrieve patients' cards.
I could feel myself shaky & sweating non-stop. Went to nearby KouFu to have lunch but I was tense up when I saw lotsa people inside this small kopitiam & indeed I was overwhelmed. I couldn't take it anymore, went over to Long John Silver where it's much quieter with lesser crowd, sat down had a drink...trying to calm myself down as unable to control my tears & felt anxiety flaring up uncontrollable.
One side of me saying am so useless, on the other hand, I can overcome this but I can't! =_=
I smsed my colleague about it & she informed Dr. I went back to clinic after I've calmed down. Dr W saw me when she's back at clinic, telling me that by now, I should know I can't work in clinic. I shouldn't have 'melted' & she got sick patients too.
I don't blame her as I can see from her point of view. In fact, am grateful to her for giving me a chance to work in her clinic & she's also understanding despite knowing I've got lotsa appointments & my chronic illnesses. Dr W told me she gave me tues afternoon & wed morning off, making sure I took alprazolem (anti-anxiety medicine) 1st before letting me go home. She waived the fees but gave me 2 days pay.
Friday, I wasn't feeling well feeling feverish, bad cough & flu. Wanted to report for work but ended up seeing Dr S at Clinic. I also wanted to let them see that am really unwell to report for work. Dr S asked me whether I know why I can't work in the clinic & yes, of course.
Dr S told me she told Dr W that with my diabetes, my immunity is very low & can easily catch viruses in their famly clinic. Dr S kept asking Dr W she seriously want to hire me. Dr S's intention was like don't because I can't work in their clinic & PLEASE don't even work in other family clinic. If I catch viruses then my health will further deteriorate. Dr S also waived the fees on friday & gave me Glucerna SR supplement.
I could feel myself shaky & sweating non-stop. Went to nearby KouFu to have lunch but I was tense up when I saw lotsa people inside this small kopitiam & indeed I was overwhelmed. I couldn't take it anymore, went over to Long John Silver where it's much quieter with lesser crowd, sat down had a drink...trying to calm myself down as unable to control my tears & felt anxiety flaring up uncontrollable.
One side of me saying am so useless, on the other hand, I can overcome this but I can't! =_=
I smsed my colleague about it & she informed Dr. I went back to clinic after I've calmed down. Dr W saw me when she's back at clinic, telling me that by now, I should know I can't work in clinic. I shouldn't have 'melted' & she got sick patients too.
I don't blame her as I can see from her point of view. In fact, am grateful to her for giving me a chance to work in her clinic & she's also understanding despite knowing I've got lotsa appointments & my chronic illnesses. Dr W told me she gave me tues afternoon & wed morning off, making sure I took alprazolem (anti-anxiety medicine) 1st before letting me go home. She waived the fees but gave me 2 days pay.
Friday, I wasn't feeling well feeling feverish, bad cough & flu. Wanted to report for work but ended up seeing Dr S at Clinic. I also wanted to let them see that am really unwell to report for work. Dr S asked me whether I know why I can't work in the clinic & yes, of course.
Dr S told me she told Dr W that with my diabetes, my immunity is very low & can easily catch viruses in their famly clinic. Dr S kept asking Dr W she seriously want to hire me. Dr S's intention was like don't because I can't work in their clinic & PLEASE don't even work in other family clinic. If I catch viruses then my health will further deteriorate. Dr S also waived the fees on friday & gave me Glucerna SR supplement.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Work updates
Am so grateful that Dr Wong willing to hire me as part-time clinic assistant despite knowing my conditions.
Tdy 2nd day at work, went for lunch, still ok but dunno why later rest to have cold tea, suddenly anxiety flaring up. Cried a bit & dunno what to do. Luckily my boss is a doctor, she prescribed anti-anxiety med for me & instructed me to take one at the clinic 1st & then let me go hom & rest plus tmr. Told me by now, I should know I cant work as clinic asst, as patients are unwell, I do understand from her point of view. I also don't wish to scare her patients.
Tdy 2nd day at work, went for lunch, still ok but dunno why later rest to have cold tea, suddenly anxiety flaring up. Cried a bit & dunno what to do. Luckily my boss is a doctor, she prescribed anti-anxiety med for me & instructed me to take one at the clinic 1st & then let me go hom & rest plus tmr. Told me by now, I should know I cant work as clinic asst, as patients are unwell, I do understand from her point of view. I also don't wish to scare her patients.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Books to read up
Strongly recommend this book titled "Tackling Depression At Work" A practical guide for employees & managers by Kerrie Eyers & Gorden Parker. 616.89 EYE-[HEA].
More details avail at http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/aboutus/blackdogbooks.cfm
More details avail at http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/aboutus/blackdogbooks.cfm
Monday, October 10, 2011
Am featured in tdy's My Paper
Do check out online My Paper http://www.mypaper.sg/ on page 2, featuring my mother & myself on mental health.
It's also available at AsiaOne http://health.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20111010-304101.html.
It's also available at AsiaOne http://health.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20111010-304101.html.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Invitation to Celebrating NLB-SRS Partnership in Commemoration of World Mental Health Day on 9 Oct 2011
My mother & myself would like to thank Silver Ribbon Singapore (SRS) Porsche & team for tdy's event at Toa Payoh. Allowing us to have opportunities to share thru media interviews & hvg Diana staying alongside with us thru'out. Cheers! :D
Wow! I didn't expect so many media interviews by Asian Parents magazine, My Paper, TNP, The Straits Times & MCYS about mental health & my depression today at Toa Payoh NLB!! :p
I was in 'Koolz' state despite unable to sleep the whole night as I was really very upset & somewhat frustrated with the job placement, ended up pinching myself & cried the whole night. :'(
Silver Ribbon Singapore (SRS) Executive Director, Porsche wanted both my mother & myself as speakers too.
Journalist from 'My Paper' - Wo Bao, told me it will be published in tomorrow's papers. Suppose same goes for the rest too. :p
Wow! I didn't expect so many media interviews by Asian Parents magazine, My Paper, TNP, The Straits Times & MCYS about mental health & my depression today at Toa Payoh NLB!! :p
I was in 'Koolz' state despite unable to sleep the whole night as I was really very upset & somewhat frustrated with the job placement, ended up pinching myself & cried the whole night. :'(
Silver Ribbon Singapore (SRS) Executive Director, Porsche wanted both my mother & myself as speakers too.
Journalist from 'My Paper' - Wo Bao, told me it will be published in tomorrow's papers. Suppose same goes for the rest too. :p
Friday, October 7, 2011
Session tdy
Tdy went for psychology session despite hvg sickness...later appt with Chyi Wai whom arranging job for me via Dr Lee.
Tdy session with Janet less than 1/2 hr...I got frustrated...I reached LIFE at 10.46 am, appt time is 11 a.m. but I was seen at 11.25 am & ended before 12noon. Previous appt, same thing happened...there was a patient inside, overtime which cut into mine & my session ended up less than 1/2 hr.
I told Janet that I dun like her & that it's not getting anywhere...am so FRUSTRATED & cried. She dunno how to break ice by asking questions but she said she asked & I didn't answer but I dun feel like answering them but she could rephrase & prompted me something in order to get something out of me.
So Janet said she'll tell Dr Lee about this that I wanted to change another therapist as this is getting to nowhere. She wanted me to thank her & 'gou gou shou zhi'.
After am out of LIFE ctr, Kevin saw me & asked how am I & that I dun looked that well to him. Kevin's v observant.
Saw Chyi Wai, told me next time, anything, just let him know instead of gg to Dr Lee...lol...
He asked if am still angry with him & I told him NO!! If am still angry, tdy wont be coming to see him lor..& he laughed.
He will arranged forme to work at JPs KFC to collect trays..asked if am scared of dirtiness..YES! I am & am allergic to dust too. He asked to give him 2-3 wks to arrange the job for me.
Tdy session with Janet less than 1/2 hr...I got frustrated...I reached LIFE at 10.46 am, appt time is 11 a.m. but I was seen at 11.25 am & ended before 12noon. Previous appt, same thing happened...there was a patient inside, overtime which cut into mine & my session ended up less than 1/2 hr.
I told Janet that I dun like her & that it's not getting anywhere...am so FRUSTRATED & cried. She dunno how to break ice by asking questions but she said she asked & I didn't answer but I dun feel like answering them but she could rephrase & prompted me something in order to get something out of me.
So Janet said she'll tell Dr Lee about this that I wanted to change another therapist as this is getting to nowhere. She wanted me to thank her & 'gou gou shou zhi'.
After am out of LIFE ctr, Kevin saw me & asked how am I & that I dun looked that well to him. Kevin's v observant.
Saw Chyi Wai, told me next time, anything, just let him know instead of gg to Dr Lee...lol...
He asked if am still angry with him & I told him NO!! If am still angry, tdy wont be coming to see him lor..& he laughed.
He will arranged forme to work at JPs KFC to collect trays..asked if am scared of dirtiness..YES! I am & am allergic to dust too. He asked to give him 2-3 wks to arrange the job for me.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Bleeding after menses stopped
my last day menses just stopped on Sunday 25/9 but on Wed 's evening right after LIFE gym 28/9, started to see some blood. Today even still have & stained on my panty, I've to placed the pad again. So worrying, frustrating..crave for foods & feel so tired.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Mental Health Wellness Carnival World Mental Health Day
Do join in Mental Health Wellness Carnival World Mental Health Day in collaboration with Geylang Serai CCC 2nd Oct 2011.
http://www.silverribbonsingapore.com/images/events/20111002_mhwc.jpg
http://www.silverribbonsingapore.com/images/events/20111002_mhwc.jpg
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Silver Ribbon Champion of Mental Health Award 2011 - Individual Category
This morn's call from SRS that I've won the Silver Ribbon Champion of Mental Health Award 2011 - Individual Category for my mommy!!
We will be attending the award ceremony on 2nd Oct at Paya Lebar Open Field next to SingPost at 8a.m.
This great news definitely brightens up my 'darkest mood' for the past month. Was informed there will be media coverage, omg! :p
Mommy, I LOVE U!
I knw I've been alienating my anger & frustration at you but am so sorry about it which is beyond my control. Mommy, u deserved this award being my caregiver too besides daddy.
We will be attending the award ceremony on 2nd Oct at Paya Lebar Open Field next to SingPost at 8a.m.
This great news definitely brightens up my 'darkest mood' for the past month. Was informed there will be media coverage, omg! :p
Mommy, I LOVE U!
I knw I've been alienating my anger & frustration at you but am so sorry about it which is beyond my control. Mommy, u deserved this award being my caregiver too besides daddy.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Went to see polyclinic dr ytd
When I cldnt tolerate the PMS pain & heavy menses like never before. Pads soaked less than half an hr with lotsa blood clots & ytd was the 4th day of period already! Was hvg diarrhea too.
Dr ordered thyroid test & was told to go back next wk for results. Am finger crossing as I've been feeling extremely sluggish, fatigue, lethargic & muscle aches & pains all over me.
Dr ordered thyroid test & was told to go back next wk for results. Am finger crossing as I've been feeling extremely sluggish, fatigue, lethargic & muscle aches & pains all over me.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Am so tired of life
After seeing Dr Lee on 16 Sep, went to ladies, hide inside the cubicle & cried my heart out. Am just so tired of life, felt like popping lotsa sleeping pills to sleep forever but does it really made me sleep forever?
I couldn't fell asleep with lorazepam, only with zopiclone that am able to fall asleep. Don't feel like my usual self...been extremely low mood for no reason. At nite, thinking of my mother's medical condition & myself, felt so bad for not able to provide for my family & that including my dad residing at Apex Harmony Lodge.
Felt so Lost, Hopeless & Useless. I don't feel like doing anything...except sleep & watch some TV programmes...thats all.
As one will notice, it's beena while since I last blogged online. I really don't feel like going online, dont surf or play facebook games that much. Nothing seems to interest me of late for >3 weeks. What happened to me? Am just "Alien"...wanna work or don't wanna work, am not for sure either.
I really feel extremely lethargic, pain in my shoulder blade, joints, spine, knees & ankkles...headaches & dizziness & sleepiness is all am feeling. Sometimes legs & hands numb numb... Can I numb my own emotions?
Don't ask me to recall back my art exhibition, don't ask me to go out...am afraid of crowds...I don't even feel like going to the LIFE gym this coming friday... Am just so afraid & scared. Physiotherapist advised me to get an earlier appointment to see orthopaedic but it's that I had to wait till 14 Nov...to get an earlier X-ray.
Nothing seems right...everything goes wrong Wrong WRONG!!
You will never feel what am going thru & without a job, had to seek for financial help... It's so degrading... Left with very little money, I don't know what to do. I couldn't support my parents & myself even. Am just WORTHLESS.
I couldn't fell asleep with lorazepam, only with zopiclone that am able to fall asleep. Don't feel like my usual self...been extremely low mood for no reason. At nite, thinking of my mother's medical condition & myself, felt so bad for not able to provide for my family & that including my dad residing at Apex Harmony Lodge.
Felt so Lost, Hopeless & Useless. I don't feel like doing anything...except sleep & watch some TV programmes...thats all.
As one will notice, it's beena while since I last blogged online. I really don't feel like going online, dont surf or play facebook games that much. Nothing seems to interest me of late for >3 weeks. What happened to me? Am just "Alien"...wanna work or don't wanna work, am not for sure either.
I really feel extremely lethargic, pain in my shoulder blade, joints, spine, knees & ankkles...headaches & dizziness & sleepiness is all am feeling. Sometimes legs & hands numb numb... Can I numb my own emotions?
Don't ask me to recall back my art exhibition, don't ask me to go out...am afraid of crowds...I don't even feel like going to the LIFE gym this coming friday... Am just so afraid & scared. Physiotherapist advised me to get an earlier appointment to see orthopaedic but it's that I had to wait till 14 Nov...to get an earlier X-ray.
Nothing seems right...everything goes wrong Wrong WRONG!!
You will never feel what am going thru & without a job, had to seek for financial help... It's so degrading... Left with very little money, I don't know what to do. I couldn't support my parents & myself even. Am just WORTHLESS.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Mood no gd, v v bad
Prefer death to sufferings like tat. Kena poked thrice on arm, like full punch into to puncturing me-tearing me apart when taking blood for full blood count. V v little blood & extremely slow blood flow. Almost wanna screamed out loud but I tried holding back...I cried, felt so faint & dizzy. Ended up resting at the lab's bed. Am just so USELESS!
When my fasting blood glucose is v gd at 4 & 7, nurse thot I did exercise or diet. Even keep asking me whether I got eat or not. Wanted to send me to A&E but I refuse even thou am in extreme pain. Don't hv blood for them to draw oredi...
When my fasting blood glucose is v gd at 4 & 7, nurse thot I did exercise or diet. Even keep asking me whether I got eat or not. Wanted to send me to A&E but I refuse even thou am in extreme pain. Don't hv blood for them to draw oredi...
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Mr Choo Siu Heng
I cld sense the 'fatherly' feeling when attended Mr Choo Siu Heng's funeral wake last nite & cant help tears running dwn my cheeks.
http://www.todayonline.com/Singapore/EDC110914-0000422/PM-Lee-sends-condolences-to-PAP-stalwarts-family
http://www.todayonline.com/Singapore/EDC110914-0000422/PM-Lee-sends-condolences-to-PAP-stalwarts-family
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Another disappointment!!
Despite knee & ankles excruciating pain, I still made my way to pre-arranged appt but then he's not even in. Not even basic courtesy to gimme a call/ sms or info colleagues to ctc me! What a waste of $$ on travelling expeses & time, I cld hv stay at hme dng more artworks & rest at home as am extremely lethargic. I even brought all my certificates with me.
His actions really made me very frustrated, angry & disappointed. Counter staff whom called him relayed his message, asking me to go home 1st & wait for his call week after next.
He called me up on Sat 20 Aug to arrange for meet up. Initially he suggested on 26 Aug but I told him I had Podiatry & ENT appt, with that I'm not sure how long I have to wait at ENT for my turn, as one has to wait quite long if missed his/ her turn. I waited till 1pm plus for my turn thou my appt is 11.30a.m
He told me that he'll booked our appt time at 12noon on 2 sep since I've appt at Rehab Podiatry at 10.10a.m & kept repeating to goto his dept the earlier the better. I got a call the day before my Rehab Podiatry that the podiatrist is on MC & my appt will be rescheduled to 5 Sep.
His actions really made me very frustrated, angry & disappointed. Counter staff whom called him relayed his message, asking me to go home 1st & wait for his call week after next.
He called me up on Sat 20 Aug to arrange for meet up. Initially he suggested on 26 Aug but I told him I had Podiatry & ENT appt, with that I'm not sure how long I have to wait at ENT for my turn, as one has to wait quite long if missed his/ her turn. I waited till 1pm plus for my turn thou my appt is 11.30a.m
He told me that he'll booked our appt time at 12noon on 2 sep since I've appt at Rehab Podiatry at 10.10a.m & kept repeating to goto his dept the earlier the better. I got a call the day before my Rehab Podiatry that the podiatrist is on MC & my appt will be rescheduled to 5 Sep.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Lose of muscles...!!
Tdy, went for physiotherapy at rehab. Physiotherapist accessed my left knee joint & was told the muscles are much smaller & very tender.
No wonder, had falls during last month on my left side. Very excruciating pain.
Afterwhich, appt with endocrinologist, was told blood test everything also high. Prescribed me new medications - Trolip 100mg.
No wonder, had falls during last month on my left side. Very excruciating pain.
Afterwhich, appt with endocrinologist, was told blood test everything also high. Prescribed me new medications - Trolip 100mg.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
My mini art exhibition "De StigmARTizing"
Dear frens,
Hope to cya at my mini art exhibition in collaboration with Silver Ribbon Singapore & Orchard Central titled "De StigmaARTizing".
When: 27-28 Aug & 4 Sep 2011.
Where: Orchard Central Lvl 4
Your support is much appreciated! Cheers. :)
Hope to cya at my mini art exhibition in collaboration with Silver Ribbon Singapore & Orchard Central titled "De StigmaARTizing".
When: 27-28 Aug & 4 Sep 2011.
Where: Orchard Central Lvl 4
Your support is much appreciated! Cheers. :)
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Joints, leg feet pain pain, extreme PAIN
My joints are much more in pain & felt loosen, cldnt even stand...walk till feet felt oso pain with numbness too besides feeling it on my hands. :'(
Mental illness is serious health issue
On board the mrt with HPB commercial about seeking early help for depression. A young educated mother of 3 sec sch gg youths, joke abt depression. Asking the son, aren't u hvg headache? Did u go out often?
Son replied saying then for the rest of the mth, he dun go out lor. Sighz...
How could they joke about depression like that? Mental illness is serious health issue not to be taken lightly at all!
Son replied saying then for the rest of the mth, he dun go out lor. Sighz...
How could they joke about depression like that? Mental illness is serious health issue not to be taken lightly at all!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Neighbour's kids top voices almost caused me beserk
Neighbour's kids running along my corridor, shouting on top of their voices...I was doing my artworks but couldn't concentrate & almost went berserk.
Couldn't stand their top loud voices, irritating & making me agitated that I shouted few times. Felt so CONFUSED! =_=
Couldn't stand their top loud voices, irritating & making me agitated that I shouted few times. Felt so CONFUSED! =_=
Friday, August 12, 2011
Mask made during art therapy
Tdy art therapist wanted me to use the big whole chunk of clay to make mask. Whoot!! Therapist gave me some ideas & guided me along...I made the nose, then the 2 big round eyes & eyebrows. haha...later to realise no space to create mouth!!
No mouth means dun talk. Keep quiet. :p
Art therapist wishes me good luck in my art exhibition, making me feel happy & encouraged. Thank you very much, Art Therapist. :)
No mouth means dun talk. Keep quiet. :p
Art therapist wishes me good luck in my art exhibition, making me feel happy & encouraged. Thank you very much, Art Therapist. :)
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Psychiatry music
Listen to the audio titled "Antidepressants Song" under Audio at http://www.bouldertherapist.com/html/humor/Humor.html
Enjoy...hehe
Enjoy...hehe
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Manipulative love
http://lifestyle.xin.msn.com/en/sex-relationships/article.aspx?cp-documentid=5111135
Just came across this article about 'manipulative love' & there's some pointers where am experiencing. Like today, went down to ION orchard - ELLE beauty box for free makeover as I've won it, my mother follows me.
I wasn't really like the makeup artist who did the makeover for me, no foundation, no powder, no lipstick...etc Except appying eyeliner, eye shadow & even thicken my oredi think eyebrows. I look awful but still pose for photos.
It was 5 p.m. & mother told me she's hungry. Where can we eat as dining at orchard is very expensive? Finally, we found seats at takshimaya food court, bought some tori q sticks with rice.
10 p.m. I was famished, asked where she put my ham, never answer me again! Asked,"Why? Hungry already ah?"...there she took the ham out from freezer. I was DAMN ANGRY! Asked me how to thaw it in time & steam it to put on my bread?!
FEDDUP, I throw stuffs on floor & bang the fridge. Ended cooking instant noodles. Firstly, am oredi very disappointed with the makeover, Secondly - argue where to eat, Third - hard time removing the stupid eyeliner....
Kept asking me, why I hvnt do the new stuffs for sales during my art exhibtion. Grrr...
I HATE MOTHER CONTROLLING MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now her turn angry, switched off tv, went in bedroom slp. FINE!!
Just came across this article about 'manipulative love' & there's some pointers where am experiencing. Like today, went down to ION orchard - ELLE beauty box for free makeover as I've won it, my mother follows me.
I wasn't really like the makeup artist who did the makeover for me, no foundation, no powder, no lipstick...etc Except appying eyeliner, eye shadow & even thicken my oredi think eyebrows. I look awful but still pose for photos.
It was 5 p.m. & mother told me she's hungry. Where can we eat as dining at orchard is very expensive? Finally, we found seats at takshimaya food court, bought some tori q sticks with rice.
10 p.m. I was famished, asked where she put my ham, never answer me again! Asked,"Why? Hungry already ah?"...there she took the ham out from freezer. I was DAMN ANGRY! Asked me how to thaw it in time & steam it to put on my bread?!
FEDDUP, I throw stuffs on floor & bang the fridge. Ended cooking instant noodles. Firstly, am oredi very disappointed with the makeover, Secondly - argue where to eat, Third - hard time removing the stupid eyeliner....
Kept asking me, why I hvnt do the new stuffs for sales during my art exhibtion. Grrr...
I HATE MOTHER CONTROLLING MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now her turn angry, switched off tv, went in bedroom slp. FINE!!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Obesity: An Ignored Truth - 3rd Obesity & Metabolic Unit public forum
Tdy enjoyed the forum when I saw the 'stunt' look on Dr Daniel's when I threw 2 qns to him & he said I come very well-prepared.
1. My uncle's kidney is 50% damaged after taking simvastatin, is there any alternatives besides Omega 3 fatty acid for high cholesterol?
2. How come one pax could have very high good & bad cholesterol?
The answers he provided aint satisfactory but I like Dr Shaker's honesty. :)
1. My uncle's kidney is 50% damaged after taking simvastatin, is there any alternatives besides Omega 3 fatty acid for high cholesterol?
2. How come one pax could have very high good & bad cholesterol?
The answers he provided aint satisfactory but I like Dr Shaker's honesty. :)
Friday, July 29, 2011
HIT myself REAL HARD
Last night, I was so angry with mom that I HIT myself REAL HARD at my chest & I SCRRREEEAAMMMM till voice hoarse.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Robotics @Genefest 25/7/2011 Suntec City
Went to Genefest & got to mingle with 2 robotics. Female robot knws how to whistle, blow kisses & even put 'her saliva' to gel up the guys' hair...haha
She even cried when the guys avoided her. Knw what?! She even can dance & gyrate v sensous.hehe
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150140196350101.306615.524050100&saved
Short video:
She even cried when the guys avoided her. Knw what?! She even can dance & gyrate v sensous.hehe
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150140196350101.306615.524050100&saved
Short video:
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Things been happening
For past 3 weeks, been down even thou one will see me smiling. Thurs appt with Janet, my psychologist told me she noticed I looked troubled to her while I was at LIFE ctr a few times & that worried her. Yes, she's right this time. Tried out psychodynamic, thou I don't quite like but at least, gave Janet had a better understanding of my situation.
She likes the session it went as she found out more about me & me being opened & felt closer. She knows what am gg thru all these while, the sufferings & difficulties am gg thru.
Janet praised me for being a brave gal.
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This morn, supposed to attend mindfulness workshop at Shan You but I was too dizzy & headache, BG high & high BP too.
Later in the afternoon, mom bumped into Moon whom invited me to join in her balloon sculpturing interest group. I'd phobia of balloons bursting making heart jump & piercing to my ears but I enjoyed the session. I did the rabbit!! :)
Here's photos to share http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150235374613054.345330.307637113053&type=1#!/media/set/?set=a.182658990100.125877.524050100&type=1
She likes the session it went as she found out more about me & me being opened & felt closer. She knows what am gg thru all these while, the sufferings & difficulties am gg thru.
Janet praised me for being a brave gal.
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This morn, supposed to attend mindfulness workshop at Shan You but I was too dizzy & headache, BG high & high BP too.
Later in the afternoon, mom bumped into Moon whom invited me to join in her balloon sculpturing interest group. I'd phobia of balloons bursting making heart jump & piercing to my ears but I enjoyed the session. I did the rabbit!! :)
Here's photos to share http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150235374613054.345330.307637113053&type=1#!/media/set/?set=a.182658990100.125877.524050100&type=1
Monday, July 18, 2011
Do give your support to Silver Ribbon Singapore
http://www.orchardcentral.com.sg/events-details.php?id=118
The Great Via Ferrata Wall Challenge 2011, held at Orchard Central on following dates 27-28 Aug & 4 Sep 2011. Each successful climb, Orchard Central will be donating $10 to Silver Ribbon Singapore.
What is The Climb for Charity event about?
Members of the public can also do their part by participating in the Climb for Charity on 27 & 28 August 2011 (Saturday & Sunday). With each successful climb, OC will donate $10 to Silver Ribbon (Singapore) whose mission is to educate public for better appreciation of mental illness, the stigma associated with it and the need to sincerely destigmatise mental illness.
The Great Via Ferrata Wall Challenge 2011, held at Orchard Central on following dates 27-28 Aug & 4 Sep 2011. Each successful climb, Orchard Central will be donating $10 to Silver Ribbon Singapore.
What is The Climb for Charity event about?
Members of the public can also do their part by participating in the Climb for Charity on 27 & 28 August 2011 (Saturday & Sunday). With each successful climb, OC will donate $10 to Silver Ribbon (Singapore) whose mission is to educate public for better appreciation of mental illness, the stigma associated with it and the need to sincerely destigmatise mental illness.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Events for today
This morn, went Shan You Counselling Ctr with mother, attended the Mindfulness workshop by Dr Ng
Yuen Yuen. Thru breathing concentration, had difficulty breathing & felt dizziness, hence, asked Dr Ng if it's alright for me to continue the breathing exercise.
Dr Ng said she had given me a long answer to my short question, hehe...Enjoyed the session.
We went to HOME Team's exhibition at Suntec, got goodies & I won the lucky draw. Tmr gg to collect. Took some photos on their stylo milo vehicles & photographers helped to take free photos for us.
NICE! :)
Yuen Yuen. Thru breathing concentration, had difficulty breathing & felt dizziness, hence, asked Dr Ng if it's alright for me to continue the breathing exercise.
Dr Ng said she had given me a long answer to my short question, hehe...Enjoyed the session.
We went to HOME Team's exhibition at Suntec, got goodies & I won the lucky draw. Tmr gg to collect. Took some photos on their stylo milo vehicles & photographers helped to take free photos for us.
NICE! :)
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Art therapy session this morn
Was good. Shared some of my artworks which am gg to sell at a mini art booth with art therapst. Tdy did a Creative Box using clay.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Hope to get back my artwork
I really hope to get my artwork back from this artist Angie Seah. In bid of SGH's aid in MSW, it took me lotsa efforts to do this artwork using Hama Beads - Home is Where The Heart Is. Till now, yet to see my artwork being displayed in SGH's grounds.
If you like my artwork, do pay for the workmanship & please do not keep it to yourself. Please return to it's rightful owner.
Rightful owner had hardtime doing this piece of artwork, straining her eyes due to diabetic retinopathy & lotsa focusing required due to depression.
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?cropsuccess&id=524050100#!/event.php?eid=153593098019993
If you like my artwork, do pay for the workmanship & please do not keep it to yourself. Please return to it's rightful owner.
Rightful owner had hardtime doing this piece of artwork, straining her eyes due to diabetic retinopathy & lotsa focusing required due to depression.
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?cropsuccess&id=524050100#!/event.php?eid=153593098019993
Thursday, July 7, 2011
‘De StigmARTizing’ booth exhibition - 27-28 Aug & 4 Sep
Silver Ribbon (Singapore) and Orchard Central (OC) will be co-organising The Great Via Ferrata Challenge @ Orchard Central (OC) and have been allocated a space for booth exhibition titled ‘De StigmARTizing’ at Level 4 on- 27 & 28 Aug where a charity climb will be held to raise funds for SRS, and-4 Sep where we launch the final round of The Great Via Ferrata Challenge.
I've been invited to take up a booth & am so excited! Do bring ur friends along, your full support is much APPRECIATED! :)
Cheers!
I've been invited to take up a booth & am so excited! Do bring ur friends along, your full support is much APPRECIATED! :)
Cheers!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Sharing psychology quotes which I like
1. [Psychoanalysis] is not the only way to resolve inner conflicts. Life itself still remains a very effective therapist. ~Karen Horney, Our Inner Conflicts, 1945
2. The hypothalamus is one of the most important parts of the brain, involved in many kinds of motivation, among other functions. The hypothalamus controls the "Four F's": fighting, fleeing, feeding, and mating. ~Marvin Dunnette
3. A vigorous five-mile walk will do more good for an unhappy but otherwise healthy adult than all the medicine and psychology in the world. ~Paul Dudley White
4. The aim of psychoanalysis is to relieve people of their neurotic unhappiness so that they can be normally unhappy. ~Sigmund Freud, attributed
5. A psychiatrist asks a lot of expensive questions your wife asks for nothing. ~Joey Adams
6. The sun is nature's Prozac. ~Astrid Alauda, 1990
7. If my devils are to leave me, I am afraid my angels will take flight as well. ~Rainer Maria Rilke, on leaving psychotherapy
Here's one funny joke I came upon.
MENTAL HOSPITAL PHONE MENU
Hello and thank you for calling The State Mental Hospital.
Please select from the following options menu:
If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.
If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5 and 6.
If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want, stay on the line so we can trace your call.
If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be forwarded to the Mother Ship.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are manic-depressive, it doesn’t matter which number you press, nothing will make you happy anyway.
If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.
If you are bipolar, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.
If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.
If you have low self-esteem, please hang up our operators are too busy to talk with you.
If you are menopausal, put the gun down, hang up, turn on the fan, lie down and cry. You won’t be crazy forever.
If you are blonde, don’t press any buttons, you’ll just mess it up.
2. The hypothalamus is one of the most important parts of the brain, involved in many kinds of motivation, among other functions. The hypothalamus controls the "Four F's": fighting, fleeing, feeding, and mating. ~Marvin Dunnette
3. A vigorous five-mile walk will do more good for an unhappy but otherwise healthy adult than all the medicine and psychology in the world. ~Paul Dudley White
4. The aim of psychoanalysis is to relieve people of their neurotic unhappiness so that they can be normally unhappy. ~Sigmund Freud, attributed
5. A psychiatrist asks a lot of expensive questions your wife asks for nothing. ~Joey Adams
6. The sun is nature's Prozac. ~Astrid Alauda, 1990
7. If my devils are to leave me, I am afraid my angels will take flight as well. ~Rainer Maria Rilke, on leaving psychotherapy
Here's one funny joke I came upon.
MENTAL HOSPITAL PHONE MENU
Hello and thank you for calling The State Mental Hospital.
Please select from the following options menu:
If you are obsessive-compulsive, press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2 for you.
If you have multiple personalities, press 3, 4, 5 and 6.
If you are paranoid, we know who you are and what you want, stay on the line so we can trace your call.
If you are delusional, press 7 and your call will be forwarded to the Mother Ship.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are manic-depressive, it doesn’t matter which number you press, nothing will make you happy anyway.
If you are dyslexic, press 9696969696969696.
If you are bipolar, please leave a message after the beep or before the beep or after the beep. Please wait for the beep.
If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9. If you have short-term memory loss, press 9.
If you have low self-esteem, please hang up our operators are too busy to talk with you.
If you are menopausal, put the gun down, hang up, turn on the fan, lie down and cry. You won’t be crazy forever.
If you are blonde, don’t press any buttons, you’ll just mess it up.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Felt so 'Wei Qu'
Both mother & myself invited to Parents' Day held at Joy Garden at Jurong SAFRA tdy. We were ushered to our VIP seats. Back to our seats after taking photos at the main entrance, we were told to shift seats to another table & then changed again.
Organiser brought us to the table with indians, "no bias against any race thou" & the seats so cramped & no one really mke way for us to walk in to our seats. They started to speak in their languages & eyes staring at us. I felt so angry & "wei qu" as organiser kept telling us to shift seats & tables. FELT SO LEFT OUT!
We wanna leave, I cried out! Mother called for Roland, if no seats, never mind, we'll just leave will do. Instead of just anyhow 'chuck us' to a table. Roland gave us the 'heng wu nai' expression, wanting us to stay on.
Later, we were arranged to a table with chinese. No more next time, wont be attending such event. Poor co-ordination of table arrangements. There were 2 EMPTY tables with most tables having 6-8 pax.
Actually, I was looking forward to this event happily but such a wet blanket. :'(
Organiser brought us to the table with indians, "no bias against any race thou" & the seats so cramped & no one really mke way for us to walk in to our seats. They started to speak in their languages & eyes staring at us. I felt so angry & "wei qu" as organiser kept telling us to shift seats & tables. FELT SO LEFT OUT!
We wanna leave, I cried out! Mother called for Roland, if no seats, never mind, we'll just leave will do. Instead of just anyhow 'chuck us' to a table. Roland gave us the 'heng wu nai' expression, wanting us to stay on.
Later, we were arranged to a table with chinese. No more next time, wont be attending such event. Poor co-ordination of table arrangements. There were 2 EMPTY tables with most tables having 6-8 pax.
Actually, I was looking forward to this event happily but such a wet blanket. :'(
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Wound's very serious fm insect bite
My right foot top, bitten by unknown insect caused some bleeding which I applied hexadone to it. On sun's nite, after shower, removed the dressing - wound has hole yellow pain. I dressed it with biotine & went to see doctor today.
Dr ordered a tetanus booster, dressing & prescribed me with antibiotic & biotine. Advised to go back to them if persist for a wk & will be referred to specialist. =_=
Dr ordered a tetanus booster, dressing & prescribed me with antibiotic & biotine. Advised to go back to them if persist for a wk & will be referred to specialist. =_=
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Dear ED fren passed away - juz learnt
Went to drop by one of my fb fren's wall just & learnt tat she passed away whom hvg ED. Wondering how come so long she didnt tweet n fb so long. Guess it's a relief for her since prev mths back, she kept self-harming quite often. :(
My Condolences.
My Condolences.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Silver Ribbon S'pore W.A.R.M Launch @Woodlands CC 11 Jun 2011
11 Jun 2011, launch of W.A.R.M by Silver Ribbon S'pore & Woodlands CCC at Woodlands CC.
It was truely an eye opener & benefit from the seminar.
With Daren's sharing about his bipolar, how he lost his job but landed on part-time as lecturer ina polyclinic. His wife, also his caregiver shares her experiences & thoughts.
Both husband & wife, launched their book titled "The Boy Who Hated the Sun, The Girl Who Loved the Sun" this evening at Woodlands CC.
Woodlands CC has free counselling sessions which is now available to residents, more convenience too without having to travel far.
We hope to have such services made available in Jurong. Help stamp out stigma too.
It was truely an eye opener & benefit from the seminar.
With Daren's sharing about his bipolar, how he lost his job but landed on part-time as lecturer ina polyclinic. His wife, also his caregiver shares her experiences & thoughts.
Both husband & wife, launched their book titled "The Boy Who Hated the Sun, The Girl Who Loved the Sun" this evening at Woodlands CC.
Woodlands CC has free counselling sessions which is now available to residents, more convenience too without having to travel far.
We hope to have such services made available in Jurong. Help stamp out stigma too.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Appt at DBC
This time appt at DBC, Dr Tan change my insulin to NovoMix 20 units before lunch n dinner, prescribed me Omega 3 fatty acid too as I lack nutritional food & also to lower HDL.
Brought up my toes & legs pain, he wanted to give me amitriptyline but need to seek Dr Lee's advise.
DNE had to attend meeting, hence, she gave me a brief call & told me at least I snack on healthier snacks.
Brought up my toes & legs pain, he wanted to give me amitriptyline but need to seek Dr Lee's advise.
DNE had to attend meeting, hence, she gave me a brief call & told me at least I snack on healthier snacks.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Selling Artworks to earn some income
I was pondering if I could sell my artworks to earn some income too as I was surfing this page http://www.imh.com.sg/downloads/Craft%20Creates%20Gift%20Catalogue.pdf
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Mood unstability
Am glad, I went for my physiotherapy & she lend a listening ear to me. She oso avised me to go for early biopsy.
Mother kept saying am VERY FAT!! Yes, I know am very obese.
I don't even take breakfast this morning & rushed for my physiotherapy session. After that, still don't have appetite to take lunch, hence, just bought mini curry puff n chicken pie to eat.
Felt so dizzy & breathless, rest a while at LIFE before gg home.
Now Vasantham airing about mental illness AN whose pregnant. Great tat there's stepping up on mental illness stigma.
Mother kept saying am VERY FAT!! Yes, I know am very obese.
I don't even take breakfast this morning & rushed for my physiotherapy session. After that, still don't have appetite to take lunch, hence, just bought mini curry puff n chicken pie to eat.
Felt so dizzy & breathless, rest a while at LIFE before gg home.
Now Vasantham airing about mental illness AN whose pregnant. Great tat there's stepping up on mental illness stigma.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Sky's thumbling down on me AGAIN!!
ENT Dr informed me tat prev blood test + for viro, suspect throat cancer or something similar. Both grown much larger unexpectantly which ENT did photos of it. He wanted to do a biopsy but I chose not to as mood unstable.
Dr worried for me but he respect my decision & put to see me earlier. Was advised to go A&E if there's bleeding from nose. Sky is thumbling down on me again! :('
Podiatrist prescribed foot support & if condition worsen, may have to refer me to see Orthopaedic.
Thank you very much Dr Lee, staff from Clinic A called me up while I was at ENT waiting for my turn as staff told me they're searching for my file. Went over to pick up my prescription.
Mother had appt with Orthopaedic, did many blood tests & was informed her lumber's in bad condition & need to go for weekly physiotherapy.
Saw my DNE in clinic & did a random blood test, BG overshot 18.5. DNE contacted MSW immediately to at least get me a box of test strips, lancets, alcohol swabs for monitoring of blood glucose as been experiencing extreme dizziness for past 2 weeks.
Dr worried for me but he respect my decision & put to see me earlier. Was advised to go A&E if there's bleeding from nose. Sky is thumbling down on me again! :('
Podiatrist prescribed foot support & if condition worsen, may have to refer me to see Orthopaedic.
Thank you very much Dr Lee, staff from Clinic A called me up while I was at ENT waiting for my turn as staff told me they're searching for my file. Went over to pick up my prescription.
Mother had appt with Orthopaedic, did many blood tests & was informed her lumber's in bad condition & need to go for weekly physiotherapy.
Saw my DNE in clinic & did a random blood test, BG overshot 18.5. DNE contacted MSW immediately to at least get me a box of test strips, lancets, alcohol swabs for monitoring of blood glucose as been experiencing extreme dizziness for past 2 weeks.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
This is exactly how I felt whenever am warded in SGH
I came across this online blog abt staying in hospital & it relates to how I felt exactly the same whenever I was warded in SGH.
http://blogs.psychcentral.com/bipolar-mom/2011/05/my-fall-my-hospital-stay/
"From the moment I got up to the floor with the “crazy people” I felt violated. I felt emotionally and mentally raped. I felt beaten and tormented. I felt abandoned."
"It then became my mission to act as sane as possible to get the hell out of there. I was NOT crazy, and did NOT belong in there with all those crazy people. I was just depressed! Well, looking back, that is exactly where I should have been. With my peers, not with “crazy” people."
"I took my medicine as I was supposed to, and slowly got better. I stopped crying and went through the motions of group therapy and personal therapy as I needed to, to get out. It was my priority to go home. I had no idea how bad I was, but I was doing pretty bad.
After I finally went home, the hospital had the same diagnoses of major depressive disorder."
No matter what, not in my life, will I wanna be referred to IMH!
http://blogs.psychcentral.com/bipolar-mom/2011/05/my-fall-my-hospital-stay/
"From the moment I got up to the floor with the “crazy people” I felt violated. I felt emotionally and mentally raped. I felt beaten and tormented. I felt abandoned."
"It then became my mission to act as sane as possible to get the hell out of there. I was NOT crazy, and did NOT belong in there with all those crazy people. I was just depressed! Well, looking back, that is exactly where I should have been. With my peers, not with “crazy” people."
"I took my medicine as I was supposed to, and slowly got better. I stopped crying and went through the motions of group therapy and personal therapy as I needed to, to get out. It was my priority to go home. I had no idea how bad I was, but I was doing pretty bad.
After I finally went home, the hospital had the same diagnoses of major depressive disorder."
No matter what, not in my life, will I wanna be referred to IMH!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Self-help & some interesting findings about Mental Health
Postural Problems a Sign of Bipolar Illness?
http://psychcentral.com/news/2011/05/25/postural-problems-a-sign-of-bipolar-illness/26467.html
Bipolar Often Misdiagnosed
http://psychcentral.com/news/2009/06/08/bipolar-often-misdiagnosed/6361.html
Disaster Plans Should Include Those with Mental Illness
http://psychcentral.com/news/2011/05/24/disaster-plans-should-include-those-with-mental-illness/26432.html
Self-Exploration: Getting To Know Thyself
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/05/24/self-exploration-getting-to-know-thyself/
http://psychcentral.com/news/2011/05/25/postural-problems-a-sign-of-bipolar-illness/26467.html
Bipolar Often Misdiagnosed
http://psychcentral.com/news/2009/06/08/bipolar-often-misdiagnosed/6361.html
Disaster Plans Should Include Those with Mental Illness
http://psychcentral.com/news/2011/05/24/disaster-plans-should-include-those-with-mental-illness/26432.html
Self-Exploration: Getting To Know Thyself
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/05/24/self-exploration-getting-to-know-thyself/
Horrible side effects with antidepressant Pristiq
Took Pristiq for 3 days, since last week friday morn, mood's a bit better but experiencing extreme nausea, headache, worst night terrors & difficulty urinating (max 3 times toilet visit & it pains a lot) even when I drank lotsa water. I've stopped taking it for 2 days, nausea subsiding too.
Worst thing that's happening it's my VOICE LOST when I woke up on tues morning!! =_=
Don't know what happened but I was still alright during session with Florence MSW morn & Janet on Mon's afternoon & I was at MPS on that faithful night.
When am not on setraline, my body temperature went down a lot. Heads up - I don't wish to try on any other new antidepressant *SURRENDER*.
Worst thing that's happening it's my VOICE LOST when I woke up on tues morning!! =_=
Don't know what happened but I was still alright during session with Florence MSW morn & Janet on Mon's afternoon & I was at MPS on that faithful night.
When am not on setraline, my body temperature went down a lot. Heads up - I don't wish to try on any other new antidepressant *SURRENDER*.
Tuesday Report - I'm Special
watch 'Tuesday Report - I'm special"? Ytd was abt former prison female officer, met w car accident & she was paralysed. Even her hands were stiffed, legs cldnt walk n worst, no feel of balance on wheelchair. However, w long term physio, she atlas found her balance & got her 1st try to stand up with aid tool. I knw her self-esteem is extreme low. Right now, she did paintings v beautiful w her mouth. I admire her, Salute!
Sunday, May 22, 2011
New Balance Concept Store @Velocity
Today, went to New Balance Concept Store @Velocity to het FIT DATA done as instructed by podiatrist. The salesgal whom attended to me is not professional enough, speaking in extreme soft tone, in which only she herself can hear her ownself talking.
Insisting that my feet is size 7, kept insisting that I can wear ladies shoe. I showed her my NIKE shoe size 9 & it's men's size. Later, she commented that she also wearin men's size 9, my foot don't look big to her. I wanted to say her but I kept quiet.
If she herself is of medium build & need to wear men's size 9, how about me? Am very disappointed & frustrated with her service. She took men's size 9 shoes but my foot can feel as if being 'wrapped up like dumpling' & yet she said it fits me!!
I went to another sports store where they offer free consultation too. The salesgal came out to attend to me from the counter with friendly smile & after testing on threadmill, was advised to go for either 'stabilty', 'medium to max cushioning' type of shoes. The way she presented herself is very professional.
Now that I know which type of shoes I should get but provided it's within my budget. I'm not holding even a part-time job yet.
Insisting that my feet is size 7, kept insisting that I can wear ladies shoe. I showed her my NIKE shoe size 9 & it's men's size. Later, she commented that she also wearin men's size 9, my foot don't look big to her. I wanted to say her but I kept quiet.
If she herself is of medium build & need to wear men's size 9, how about me? Am very disappointed & frustrated with her service. She took men's size 9 shoes but my foot can feel as if being 'wrapped up like dumpling' & yet she said it fits me!!
I went to another sports store where they offer free consultation too. The salesgal came out to attend to me from the counter with friendly smile & after testing on threadmill, was advised to go for either 'stabilty', 'medium to max cushioning' type of shoes. The way she presented herself is very professional.
Now that I know which type of shoes I should get but provided it's within my budget. I'm not holding even a part-time job yet.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Message forever residing inside ME
Mrs Tharman's message: "A gem with heart of sincerity and kindness and language of the gods" will forever residing inside ME. Tuvm, Mrs Tharman. :)
No money, No life...
No job = no money = outstanding bills = no life
Reflectng back yesterday's appt with Dr Lee, if she were to refer me to IMH! Then I'll die lor!! Over my dead body, NO WAY am gg to IMH!
How can I make my aged mother go all the long journey?
How will I survive there?
How about MSW?
Dr Lee dun wanna see me anymore?? I rather be seen at SGH SOC. Everything all under one roof.
I HATE HVG TO GO THRU 'MY LIFE' with another MSW, docs, nurses, etc...
Reflectng back yesterday's appt with Dr Lee, if she were to refer me to IMH! Then I'll die lor!! Over my dead body, NO WAY am gg to IMH!
How can I make my aged mother go all the long journey?
How will I survive there?
How about MSW?
Dr Lee dun wanna see me anymore?? I rather be seen at SGH SOC. Everything all under one roof.
I HATE HVG TO GO THRU 'MY LIFE' with another MSW, docs, nurses, etc...
Thursday, May 19, 2011
8 Ways To Create A List For The Life You Want NOW
Got this book titled "8 Ways To Create A List For The Life You Want NOW" by Phil Keoghan from NTUC Xtra at $8.
Was attracted by the title & hopefully someday, I'll flip thru the book & benefit from it.
http://www.amazon.com/No-Opportunity-Wasted-Creating-Life/dp/B000SOQDG8/ref=pd_sim_b_1
Was attracted by the title & hopefully someday, I'll flip thru the book & benefit from it.
http://www.amazon.com/No-Opportunity-Wasted-Creating-Life/dp/B000SOQDG8/ref=pd_sim_b_1
New medicine - Pristiq 50mg
This morning, went to see Dr Lee. Brought up to her about Sertraline 100mg which is making me more agitated, anxious, sweaty palms, body temperature rise, proposed to her to be back on fluoxetine. However, Dr Lee suggested on new medication Pristiq - Desvenlafaxin 50mg which is trial sample expiring 15 Jul 11.
I recalled back what she mentioned that this Pristiq is not available in SGH, may have to get it elsewhere. Hmm...What can I do since I've yet to land on a part-time job? I've called up SGH medical social worker Florence & she advised that to monitor if the medicine works for me 1st.
There's even a recent outstanding bill of >$300 after deducting medisave for hospitalisation.
Dr Lee mentioned about signing 'CONTRACT' with me. Very SURPRISED by her proposal, asked Dr Lee "You wanna signed contract with me?" She laughs...& yes indeed. Since I can cope when I felt like slitting my wrist & suicidal thoughts were very strong. I stayed at home as I told Dr Lee, I rather tied myself up then go IMH. Dr Lee said, even if I go to A&E, she's wont admit me since it's like 'comfy' for us & she will refer me to IMH. I told her I don't wanna go IMH!! Who wish to be be warded on a psychiatry ward.
Anway, IMH's subsidized & private wards are filled. As my depressed friend brought up when she admit herself at IMH A&E when Dr Lee thought I was the one who went there.
NAH!!! Not in my life, I will goto IMH!!
I recalled back what she mentioned that this Pristiq is not available in SGH, may have to get it elsewhere. Hmm...What can I do since I've yet to land on a part-time job? I've called up SGH medical social worker Florence & she advised that to monitor if the medicine works for me 1st.
There's even a recent outstanding bill of >$300 after deducting medisave for hospitalisation.
Dr Lee mentioned about signing 'CONTRACT' with me. Very SURPRISED by her proposal, asked Dr Lee "You wanna signed contract with me?" She laughs...& yes indeed. Since I can cope when I felt like slitting my wrist & suicidal thoughts were very strong. I stayed at home as I told Dr Lee, I rather tied myself up then go IMH. Dr Lee said, even if I go to A&E, she's wont admit me since it's like 'comfy' for us & she will refer me to IMH. I told her I don't wanna go IMH!! Who wish to be be warded on a psychiatry ward.
Anway, IMH's subsidized & private wards are filled. As my depressed friend brought up when she admit herself at IMH A&E when Dr Lee thought I was the one who went there.
NAH!!! Not in my life, I will goto IMH!!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Wat do men get from being statified by being able to brush me from behind?
I was at Sheng Shiong with mother last evening, while she's at veges dept I was at ice cream section. Typical traditional indian guy wrapped with cloth brushed my butts from behind, I turned around & stared at him. He just walked off as if nothing happened! I HATED MYSELF VERY MUCH!!
I was hanging around seafood dept when I saw how come 3 men standing right in front of the tanks. Out of curiosity, I went to take a look to find out that they were so engrossed enjoying 'LIVE' show of Australia Lobsters, one of the tank - threesome & the other one on one.
Why men think of nothing but just SEX? There's a guy whom sent me very RIDICULOUS gross bdsm message whom wanted to experience being handled like 'sister' by girls. WTH!!
Another banker, sounding me out by typing in msn, 'give me a sex' instead of 'give me a sec' & apologised that it's typo error. At once, removed him from my msn.
SICKENING!!!
I was hanging around seafood dept when I saw how come 3 men standing right in front of the tanks. Out of curiosity, I went to take a look to find out that they were so engrossed enjoying 'LIVE' show of Australia Lobsters, one of the tank - threesome & the other one on one.
Why men think of nothing but just SEX? There's a guy whom sent me very RIDICULOUS gross bdsm message whom wanted to experience being handled like 'sister' by girls. WTH!!
Another banker, sounding me out by typing in msn, 'give me a sex' instead of 'give me a sec' & apologised that it's typo error. At once, removed him from my msn.
SICKENING!!!
Know ur limits...
Saw 2 koolz NB shoes at IMM outlet but then it's kid's size! One adult even insists the shoe fits her >_< PLS LOR, how can an elephant leg fit into the mousie's shoe??
Was there becoz was told to get FIT data but learnt that gotto goto concept stores. Eews..I dun wana go somewhere far & expose myself to scorching sun. Guess best it's Velocity.
Was there becoz was told to get FIT data but learnt that gotto goto concept stores. Eews..I dun wana go somewhere far & expose myself to scorching sun. Guess best it's Velocity.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Why such thoughts?
Last nite, took lorazepamx2 but unable to slp. Yet, unwanted scary thots kept floating in my mind.Thots were sliting & gg to One Fullerton. Why?
Tdy, wasnt any better. I screamed out loud "I HATE U ALL" & crying on my bed. Dare not go anywhere.
Just wanted to die but I've potential, why should I die? This is how I psycho myself. I just go to sleep, at least keep myself from harming ownself.
Tdy, wasnt any better. I screamed out loud "I HATE U ALL" & crying on my bed. Dare not go anywhere.
Just wanted to die but I've potential, why should I die? This is how I psycho myself. I just go to sleep, at least keep myself from harming ownself.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Skin condition better
Yesterday went to polyclinic but Dr N's on part time, hence, aint in in the afternoon. I requested for any other female doctor.
Waited for an hr plus for my turn & seen by Dr C whom very young & pretty. Saw the heaty rash over my neck & pimples liked under bosom and left nose internally. Prescribed me Biotine, Hydroderm & Aqueous cream for a wk.
Hydroderm cream very effective cream to stop the itchy rash. Well, I oso felt better with extreme cooling air conditioned places but definitely not at home. Managed to get an additional stand fan.
Waited for an hr plus for my turn & seen by Dr C whom very young & pretty. Saw the heaty rash over my neck & pimples liked under bosom and left nose internally. Prescribed me Biotine, Hydroderm & Aqueous cream for a wk.
Hydroderm cream very effective cream to stop the itchy rash. Well, I oso felt better with extreme cooling air conditioned places but definitely not at home. Managed to get an additional stand fan.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
SOS, put me inside FREEZER
Weather is way too extremely humid for me to tolerate anymore! I wanna put myself inside the FREEZER!!!
Skin's peeling with redness & itchy. There's something pimple-like inside my left nostril which is pain without even touching it.
Eews...
Skin's peeling with redness & itchy. There's something pimple-like inside my left nostril which is pain without even touching it.
Eews...
Monday, May 9, 2011
Am being BBQ-ED by extremely humid weather
my skin's peeling off, redness & itchy. Oh, it's making me very MAD!!
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Passion card renewal & got myself a new free SKECHERS pink bag!! Yeahoo!!
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Passion card renewal & got myself a new free SKECHERS pink bag!! Yeahoo!!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
What else besides iPad2?
There's this ASUS Eee Pad Transformer TF101!!
Runs on Tegra, long battery life, 2 USB ports & compatible SD & microSD card slots & so on....More details available at http://www.asus.com/Eee/Eee_Pad/Eee_Pad_Transformer_TF101/
It's light, stylish, scratch resistance will attract one to it.
Runs on Tegra, long battery life, 2 USB ports & compatible SD & microSD card slots & so on....More details available at http://www.asus.com/Eee/Eee_Pad/Eee_Pad_Transformer_TF101/
It's light, stylish, scratch resistance will attract one to it.
Very meaningful video
Here's a meaningful video to share in which I've got from Pastor - Holy3nity.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hzgzim5m7oU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hzgzim5m7oU
Friday, May 6, 2011
"Human" machine broke down
Yesterday, was seen by podaitrist for my left toe wound, still got some splinters in. Managed to pull out & left a tiny bit as there's still pain.
Afterwhich, seen by new diabetes nurse whom worked at psy ward before.
She was so surprised of my blood glucose readings as falls under normal range.
Asked if I purposely starved myself to have perfect readings. Nope but meals aint regular. I couldn't sleep well at night as woken up by noises & my back pain. Dr Tan was surprised with my good readings as I didn't even inject a wee bit of novorapid before dinnertime.
Left arm, excruciating pain radiating from back to arm to shoulder to neck & triggered my migraine. Felt so dislocated & there's numbness pain on my whole of left arm.
HDB flat is under renovations, with all the paintings, drillings & washing - had to tolerate the paint odour which made me nausea & dizzy, noise from drills & washing had to have windows shut, feeling sauna inside the house!
Been experiencing nightmares about psychiatry settings & other night terrors.
Afterwhich, seen by new diabetes nurse whom worked at psy ward before.
She was so surprised of my blood glucose readings as falls under normal range.
Asked if I purposely starved myself to have perfect readings. Nope but meals aint regular. I couldn't sleep well at night as woken up by noises & my back pain. Dr Tan was surprised with my good readings as I didn't even inject a wee bit of novorapid before dinnertime.
Left arm, excruciating pain radiating from back to arm to shoulder to neck & triggered my migraine. Felt so dislocated & there's numbness pain on my whole of left arm.
HDB flat is under renovations, with all the paintings, drillings & washing - had to tolerate the paint odour which made me nausea & dizzy, noise from drills & washing had to have windows shut, feeling sauna inside the house!
Been experiencing nightmares about psychiatry settings & other night terrors.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tune in to OKTO 2nite @10p.m.
The Memory Garden Project by Ketna Patel & Foo Aiwei and SGH Garden will be aired tonite, 4 May on Okto TV at 10pm. Do tune in!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Can I just don't go for consultations?
Suddenly something strike my mind... can I just don't go for consultations?
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This morning, woke up had breakfast & felt so sleepy, went back to sleep. Woke up 2p.m., made some pancakes. Dinner, had some crinkle cut fries, fish nuggets & salad. cant finish the fries.
Thinking, maybe I should go for commis cook. Stay in kitchen, no need to interact with anyone.
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This morning, woke up had breakfast & felt so sleepy, went back to sleep. Woke up 2p.m., made some pancakes. Dinner, had some crinkle cut fries, fish nuggets & salad. cant finish the fries.
Thinking, maybe I should go for commis cook. Stay in kitchen, no need to interact with anyone.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Dieting personality
Interesting, I took the dieting personality & knw whats the result? Caloric!! Eewss
Your Results
Your diet personality: Caloric
Cutting back on your calorie intake can help you lose weight, but never overdo it: Skipping meals and embarking on very low calorie diets can backfire. "As soon as you start eating a great deal less than you regularly do, your body will respond by going into its conservation mode," explains Dr. Stephanie Dalvit-McPhillips, author of The Right Bite. This manner of operating includes a slower metabolic rate, temporarily reducing the rate at which your body burns calories and fat. "Not only will you find it increasingly difficult to lose body fat on a very low-cal diet, your body fat will increase more rapidly than ever when you go back to eating normally," adds Dalvit-McPhillips.
Healthy eating and regular exercise are really the best way for long-term weight loss: Researchers at the University of Colorado School of Medicine found that people who are successful at maintaining weight loss are the ones who eat a dietary pattern very similar to that recommended by nutritionists – with most calories in the form of complex carbohydrates, less than 30 percent of calories from fat, and about 20 percent of calories from protein – and stay physically active.
Your Results
Your diet personality: Caloric
Cutting back on your calorie intake can help you lose weight, but never overdo it: Skipping meals and embarking on very low calorie diets can backfire. "As soon as you start eating a great deal less than you regularly do, your body will respond by going into its conservation mode," explains Dr. Stephanie Dalvit-McPhillips, author of The Right Bite. This manner of operating includes a slower metabolic rate, temporarily reducing the rate at which your body burns calories and fat. "Not only will you find it increasingly difficult to lose body fat on a very low-cal diet, your body fat will increase more rapidly than ever when you go back to eating normally," adds Dalvit-McPhillips.
Healthy eating and regular exercise are really the best way for long-term weight loss: Researchers at the University of Colorado School of Medicine found that people who are successful at maintaining weight loss are the ones who eat a dietary pattern very similar to that recommended by nutritionists – with most calories in the form of complex carbohydrates, less than 30 percent of calories from fat, and about 20 percent of calories from protein – and stay physically active.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Supportive & not possesive lurker
What I need is supportive fren & not someone who is a possesive lurker in my FB!
I was online live messenger when "S" msged asking about the clinic. Even mentioned to me that "S" went thru my list of frens & even seen the postings.
Not only that, "S" even smsed me daily but I totally ignored the messages. No obligations & I don't need to report to "S". It's my own personal life.
When "S" saw my latest photo, "S" commented that my life is colourful. Yes, our lives needs to be colourful even thou in darkness most of the time.
Shouldn't we as patients make a slight effort to help ownself to recovery?
Felt so horrible deep down when I found out "S" is lurker at FB! Since then, removed from my frens list.
I was online live messenger when "S" msged asking about the clinic. Even mentioned to me that "S" went thru my list of frens & even seen the postings.
Not only that, "S" even smsed me daily but I totally ignored the messages. No obligations & I don't need to report to "S". It's my own personal life.
When "S" saw my latest photo, "S" commented that my life is colourful. Yes, our lives needs to be colourful even thou in darkness most of the time.
Shouldn't we as patients make a slight effort to help ownself to recovery?
Felt so horrible deep down when I found out "S" is lurker at FB! Since then, removed from my frens list.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
8 Days Cooking Workshop w/Chef Daniel & Bryan Wong 30/4/2011
Woke up at 8a.m., preparing ourselves to attend the 8 Days cooking workshop with Chef Daniel hosted by Bryan Wong at Seven (Illuma). Finger crossing as there's heavy downpour with thunder but it stopped before we set off.
Felt hungry upon reaching bugis junction, mother laughed at me for feeling famish & cited that there will be high tea buffet at the cooking workshop. I pointed out that it stated it will start at 2p.m & who knows, maybe it could be delayed.
Bought one nacho cheese bread for myself & one fruity cheese bread for mother. Took the linkway from bugis junction to illuma. We need to take the lift to level 7 - Sky where "Seven" is located. After attendance confirmation, we're given lucky draw which is also a survey form.
WOW! Lotsa participants had seated & I was at the 2nd row side & mother on the front row. Everyone has the recipie with them & watching Chef Daniel demostrating while Bryan did the talking most. Oh, we enjoyed Bryan's Ahem...."Jokes" which brightened our day.
The program overrun it's scheduled time & Bryan had to rush off to another location, hence, we didn't have the chance to take photo with him, instead, with just Chef Daniel.
Lotsa people were hoarding at the high tea buffet in front, queue ain't moving at all!! We're EXTREMELY FAMISHED as experiencing coldness & shakiness. Those who had their 1st round of full set of food, went for 2nd & third rounds without Q-ing. As for us, those still waiting for turns to have food were so disappointed as there's not enough to go round.
Some senior participants told Chef Daniel on the spot & later staff brought in the pork lion which Chef Daniel personally cooked it during the demo. It was worlds apart, Heaven & Earth manz!! Cooked by Chef Daniel was YUMMY but the one tasted at the high tea earlier on was so "ROUGH".
We were given goodie bags when we're exiting & returned the red sticker. Very tired as goodie bag heavy with 3 beverages, dairy...etc.
Waiting for the next upcoming cooking workshop, hopefully organised at Hotel.
Felt hungry upon reaching bugis junction, mother laughed at me for feeling famish & cited that there will be high tea buffet at the cooking workshop. I pointed out that it stated it will start at 2p.m & who knows, maybe it could be delayed.
Bought one nacho cheese bread for myself & one fruity cheese bread for mother. Took the linkway from bugis junction to illuma. We need to take the lift to level 7 - Sky where "Seven" is located. After attendance confirmation, we're given lucky draw which is also a survey form.
WOW! Lotsa participants had seated & I was at the 2nd row side & mother on the front row. Everyone has the recipie with them & watching Chef Daniel demostrating while Bryan did the talking most. Oh, we enjoyed Bryan's Ahem...."Jokes" which brightened our day.
The program overrun it's scheduled time & Bryan had to rush off to another location, hence, we didn't have the chance to take photo with him, instead, with just Chef Daniel.
Lotsa people were hoarding at the high tea buffet in front, queue ain't moving at all!! We're EXTREMELY FAMISHED as experiencing coldness & shakiness. Those who had their 1st round of full set of food, went for 2nd & third rounds without Q-ing. As for us, those still waiting for turns to have food were so disappointed as there's not enough to go round.
Some senior participants told Chef Daniel on the spot & later staff brought in the pork lion which Chef Daniel personally cooked it during the demo. It was worlds apart, Heaven & Earth manz!! Cooked by Chef Daniel was YUMMY but the one tasted at the high tea earlier on was so "ROUGH".
We were given goodie bags when we're exiting & returned the red sticker. Very tired as goodie bag heavy with 3 beverages, dairy...etc.
Waiting for the next upcoming cooking workshop, hopefully organised at Hotel.
Friday, April 29, 2011
True life facts about Depression sufferers
Attached urls to news about depression sufferers coping with life & work. Hope this reduces stigma. What was being mentioned by both, is also how I feel.
http://health.asiaone.com/Health/Health%2BMatters/Story/A1Story20110321-269288.html
http://health.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20110415-273857.html
http://health.asiaone.com/Health/Health%2BMatters/Story/A1Story20110321-269288.html
http://health.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20110415-273857.html
New hope for MDD
http://health.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20110418-274217.html
Sometimes, it's scary to take new medications but upon hearing there's good news, it just made me feel better. New medications - having lesser side effects (eg: sexual dysfunction, drownsiness...etc) & no tapering off dosage required if discontinued.
It works on melatonin rather than serotonin. I wonder one would know whether they have serotonin syndrome or not when taking SSRIs/ SNRIs for a long period of time, especially for years?
Agomelatine sounds better choice for me. It works on sleep cycle & hormones (females hormones changes during PMS).
Sometimes, it's scary to take new medications but upon hearing there's good news, it just made me feel better. New medications - having lesser side effects (eg: sexual dysfunction, drownsiness...etc) & no tapering off dosage required if discontinued.
It works on melatonin rather than serotonin. I wonder one would know whether they have serotonin syndrome or not when taking SSRIs/ SNRIs for a long period of time, especially for years?
Agomelatine sounds better choice for me. It works on sleep cycle & hormones (females hormones changes during PMS).
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Prizes received
My mother shouted out for me to head to the other bedroom, pointing to the window top, there's a big white parcel thing there.
Wondering how come it's there. We took it off from the top window & it's for me from SGH! Containing 2 thermal flasks & 2 NETS flashcard in which I participated in 2 quizzes.
Wondering how come it's there. We took it off from the top window & it's for me from SGH! Containing 2 thermal flasks & 2 NETS flashcard in which I participated in 2 quizzes.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
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Yesterday scalded my finger after I tried taking out the hot boiling water from the stove to pour to my cup to make coffee. Didnt notice initially but later to find the cloth is wet hot, hence, my finger got scaled...now purple. :'(
My voice sounded better after taking antibiotics. :)
My voice sounded better after taking antibiotics. :)
Monday, April 25, 2011
Still sick
Argh...am still sick even after seeing another doctor on sat. Cough is extremely bad till one could feel the heart is being coughed out! Flu still have, just that got stuck inside due to heatiness which I could feel. I had a nap just now as I felt so tired with fever.
Tomorrow going to see another doctor, hopefully can have antibiotics. I wanna recover soon. Cough till headache throbbling.
Tomorrow going to see another doctor, hopefully can have antibiotics. I wanna recover soon. Cough till headache throbbling.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
In need of part-time job
Am in need of part-time job, for survival, for something to look forward to & one that I fits in & nearby. Staying at home all day long, doing artworks, watching tv shows, going out once a while. I need to keep myself occupied but not stressing myself out again.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Am not alright
Last night, well, I should say it's midnight, my feet top are experiencing extreme pain even without touching especially the one on the right. I gently feel & there's a bump & the pain radiated to my leg. It's so unbearable & unable to walk properly.
I felt like purging too after having 2 slices of bread with cheese when felt hungry b bedtime. It's making me sick & intolerable. I took magnesium trisillicate, at least felt better. Had to lie flat on my back for more than 2 hrs.
Caught flu after shower. Tomorrow gotto see doctor & podiatrist. :'(
I felt like purging too after having 2 slices of bread with cheese when felt hungry b bedtime. It's making me sick & intolerable. I took magnesium trisillicate, at least felt better. Had to lie flat on my back for more than 2 hrs.
Caught flu after shower. Tomorrow gotto see doctor & podiatrist. :'(
Monday, April 18, 2011
Body image
Am so obese & I gotto do something about it besides exercising. I've done research on using natural remedies which will enhance my metabolism, suppress my binge. I've taken for past 2 days & felt there's some progress.
Something gross is about to be mention but it's the fact! If makes me feel fuller after meal but one thing is if I continue to eat a bit more, I'll feel very nausea. One's output is EXTREMELY STINKO as compared to usual stinko. Long time, didnt had such ULTIMATELY STINKO output!! Wah!! Even I myself wanna faint.
Suppose it works, to detoxify internally & I felt much lighter. But that doesn't mean I can binge, alright. Wanna be slim, got to have discipline & motivation.
Move on!!
Something gross is about to be mention but it's the fact! If makes me feel fuller after meal but one thing is if I continue to eat a bit more, I'll feel very nausea. One's output is EXTREMELY STINKO as compared to usual stinko. Long time, didnt had such ULTIMATELY STINKO output!! Wah!! Even I myself wanna faint.
Suppose it works, to detoxify internally & I felt much lighter. But that doesn't mean I can binge, alright. Wanna be slim, got to have discipline & motivation.
Move on!!
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Mental comic strips
Here's mental comic strips to brighten ur day http://www.nurstoon.com/comic183.html
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Being ticked off
Tdy went to Connection One to collect my prize book "More than Mash" from Singhealth Academy. I didn't know till I got home at 6p.m. that I've missed DNE sis call. I returned her call & she wanted to check on me whether did I see doctor tdy for my injured left big toe in which I didn't.
Wanted me to called rehabilation podiatry to see if can slot emergencxy tmr or not. Citing wait toe dun hv leh, I replied saying then dun hv me as a whole pax lor.
Last nite, I drew another very "FANTASTIC" dwg as I felt so shity.
Wanted me to called rehabilation podiatry to see if can slot emergencxy tmr or not. Citing wait toe dun hv leh, I replied saying then dun hv me as a whole pax lor.
Last nite, I drew another very "FANTASTIC" dwg as I felt so shity.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
What has happened to me
Of late, been trying to refrain myself from entertaining unwanted thoughts. There's a strong force wanting me to take lotsa slpg pills, hurt myself in one way or another. It's horrible!! I don't know how long I can hang in there.
I tried doing artworks which was like able to distract me for a moment but not for long. I'm so down in dumps that I felt am extremely USELESS, WORTHLESS, RUBBISH!!
I tried doing artworks which was like able to distract me for a moment but not for long. I'm so down in dumps that I felt am extremely USELESS, WORTHLESS, RUBBISH!!
Ben & Jerry Free Cone Day 12 April 2011
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=160375504021100
Ben & Jerry Free Cone Day is once again here in Sg on 12th April 2011. Share your heart to less fortunate. Thank you very much.
Ben & Jerry Free Cone Day is once again here in Sg on 12th April 2011. Share your heart to less fortunate. Thank you very much.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Psychological nightmares
Nightmares: Tsunami & lotsa ppl died being freezed, unable to move. Was in old hse, telling my family members to stay in hse, faster close window. Food rations not enough, thou it seems no chance of survival, told my family members to recite sutra, at least to pray for hope as I offer incenses to Goddess of Mercy. Atlas, ppl were defrost.
Next was in my old pri sch toilet, where I was told to beware of spirits inside cubicles. Unknowingly, was being pulled by hair by something. Following in old hse bedroom, indian man neighbour & his son, removed upper window panes & peeped inside my bedroom while I wasn't clothed.
I was so taken aback & I yelled, subconsciously heard my mother asked me what happened. Morn, mother told me, she was so terrified by my yelling as sounded very scary.
I must have been traumatised & deeply affected by the recent Japan crisis & Myanmar.
Next was in my old pri sch toilet, where I was told to beware of spirits inside cubicles. Unknowingly, was being pulled by hair by something. Following in old hse bedroom, indian man neighbour & his son, removed upper window panes & peeped inside my bedroom while I wasn't clothed.
I was so taken aback & I yelled, subconsciously heard my mother asked me what happened. Morn, mother told me, she was so terrified by my yelling as sounded very scary.
I must have been traumatised & deeply affected by the recent Japan crisis & Myanmar.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Medical updates abt me n mother
Tdy accompanied mother to see Dr Ng oso since am not feeling well due to throat irritation & left eye sticky n painful. Dr Ng said temperature not high to be considered fever but 37.4 is not consider normal too..haha Btw, tdy PMS.
She changed new meds for me - Linctus Dextromethorphan ( coz I 'chuan' & she asked if I got asthma), Salbutamol 2mg, Loratadine 10mg, Co-Amoxiclav 625mg, Framycetin Sulf eye drop.
Mother diagnosed with diabetes, high cholesterol but also very good high level one too, hepatitis (more blood test, 2 wks later go back again for results) - given Metformin HCL 500mg (Sunward), Simvastatin & Lozartan 25mg. Dr Ng referred mother for DFS & DNS too. There there's only one nutritionist & whole of april not available in addition only visit outram polyclinic twice per mth.
Dr Ng very observant & asked how am I coz I look to her eh...*different* to her today :p I told her briefly about ytd session with art therapist & about getting the right therapist - for psychotherapy in which she agreed too & she was surprised to knw LIFE ctr got art therapy, maybe she could refer her patients for it too. hehe
She changed new meds for me - Linctus Dextromethorphan ( coz I 'chuan' & she asked if I got asthma), Salbutamol 2mg, Loratadine 10mg, Co-Amoxiclav 625mg, Framycetin Sulf eye drop.
Mother diagnosed with diabetes, high cholesterol but also very good high level one too, hepatitis (more blood test, 2 wks later go back again for results) - given Metformin HCL 500mg (Sunward), Simvastatin & Lozartan 25mg. Dr Ng referred mother for DFS & DNS too. There there's only one nutritionist & whole of april not available in addition only visit outram polyclinic twice per mth.
Dr Ng very observant & asked how am I coz I look to her eh...*different* to her today :p I told her briefly about ytd session with art therapist & about getting the right therapist - for psychotherapy in which she agreed too & she was surprised to knw LIFE ctr got art therapy, maybe she could refer her patients for it too. hehe
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
My dying heart
I've noticed that whenever am warded at SGH & after discharged, Dr Lee appeared to me very angry. I don't know why for the reason but for some reason, I told myself, well, Dr Lee must have been stressed out during morn ward rounds or someone made her angry. Well, Dr Lee...no one likes gg to hospital including myself but what makes u think otherwise.
I know at times, when u rantled at me, it's for my own good too. Do I really behaved like a kid or because of my baby face & give others that am still very young?
What saddens me is my psychologist Janet said if I joke, people wont take me seriously. She even mentioned that I appeared to her bubbly cheerful & don;t seem to have depression! Do I have to everytime appear very sad, crying right in front of YOU?! Can't I hide my saddness behind my smile? Is that wrong? Janet, do u know that everytime after having therapy session with you, it upsets me further instead.
I suppose I've yet to find the right therapist, otherwise, am getting to nowhere. Ya, just like Dr Lee said that I will have depression forever. Is zoloft still working effectively on me, I wonder? I could see shadows on ceiling wanting me & hearing creeping sounds & at times as if someone is standing somewhere looking at me!! Few days back, when thunder striked without any lighting alert which was extremely loud & one could feel the house trembled...1st time in my life...I screamed out very loud uncontrollable & went into hiding! :(
Previously, my heart just pounded & cover my ears but now...why?
I know at times, when u rantled at me, it's for my own good too. Do I really behaved like a kid or because of my baby face & give others that am still very young?
What saddens me is my psychologist Janet said if I joke, people wont take me seriously. She even mentioned that I appeared to her bubbly cheerful & don;t seem to have depression! Do I have to everytime appear very sad, crying right in front of YOU?! Can't I hide my saddness behind my smile? Is that wrong? Janet, do u know that everytime after having therapy session with you, it upsets me further instead.
I suppose I've yet to find the right therapist, otherwise, am getting to nowhere. Ya, just like Dr Lee said that I will have depression forever. Is zoloft still working effectively on me, I wonder? I could see shadows on ceiling wanting me & hearing creeping sounds & at times as if someone is standing somewhere looking at me!! Few days back, when thunder striked without any lighting alert which was extremely loud & one could feel the house trembled...1st time in my life...I screamed out very loud uncontrollable & went into hiding! :(
Previously, my heart just pounded & cover my ears but now...why?
I've won the book "More than Mash"
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My comment:
Educational for healthier food choices, not only for stroke patients but also for those with chronic illness with more nutritional & appetizing meals.
What a close shave!
I won't wanna die being BBQed.
Attached is the photo which I took around 6p.m. when I sensed something is not right & intended to alight Bus 240 when it stopped at the bus-stop in front of the Boon Lay Fire Engine Station. While inside the bus ( I was seating 3rd last near the back of the bus), bus captain was stepping on the lever which made the engine sounded very loudly which was very irritating at the red traffic light. One could smell something smoky inside in which some passengers at the back were covering their nose, I began to turn my head checking it out, that's when my sixth sense tells me, "Better get off the bus before it's gonna explode!"
As I was about to tap my ez-link card, I noticed lotsa smoke emitting from the left side of the bus, I shouted out loud to alert the other passengers & driver in mandarin "车有咽！“.
Initially, passengers still remained in their seats (too stunned or don't know what's going on?) but later to realise that they have to rush out of the bus for safety. It was drizzling at that time, I decided to take out my camera handphone & snapped the smoky bus situation. The bus captain switched off the engine & put out the smoke by fire extinguisher. He told me no worry, it run out of water, that why there's smoke.
Oh my goodness!! Shouldn't bus captains make a check on the engine first before setting off from bus interchange? I hope that there won't be any future incidents like this as it's very life threatening & engine can explode if no one knows. Many years back, personally witnessed a double decker bus engine on fire on the right end side which is horrible!!
Attached is the photo which I took around 6p.m. when I sensed something is not right & intended to alight Bus 240 when it stopped at the bus-stop in front of the Boon Lay Fire Engine Station. While inside the bus ( I was seating 3rd last near the back of the bus), bus captain was stepping on the lever which made the engine sounded very loudly which was very irritating at the red traffic light. One could smell something smoky inside in which some passengers at the back were covering their nose, I began to turn my head checking it out, that's when my sixth sense tells me, "Better get off the bus before it's gonna explode!"
As I was about to tap my ez-link card, I noticed lotsa smoke emitting from the left side of the bus, I shouted out loud to alert the other passengers & driver in mandarin "车有咽！“.
Initially, passengers still remained in their seats (too stunned or don't know what's going on?) but later to realise that they have to rush out of the bus for safety. It was drizzling at that time, I decided to take out my camera handphone & snapped the smoky bus situation. The bus captain switched off the engine & put out the smoke by fire extinguisher. He told me no worry, it run out of water, that why there's smoke.
Oh my goodness!! Shouldn't bus captains make a check on the engine first before setting off from bus interchange? I hope that there won't be any future incidents like this as it's very life threatening & engine can explode if no one knows. Many years back, personally witnessed a double decker bus engine on fire on the right end side which is horrible!!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Compliments for doctors at Outram polyclinic
Compliments for Dr Ma (mom's 1st visit on 11 Mar consultation rm 1) & Dr Ng (my 1st visit on 15 Mar tdy consultation rm 15) at Outram polyclinic. Both doctors are very friendly, attentive. Dr Ng made me feel at ease & as normal as anyone else by reassurring me that it's not a shame for having depression. She went thru my referral letter fm SGH & also my discharge summary which indicated my list of drug allergies & medications I'm on. Thank you, Dr Ng for brightening my day! :)
I really wish others, especially doctors, treat us like any other normal people. No stigma, please.
I really wish others, especially doctors, treat us like any other normal people. No stigma, please.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
V upset by the ward nurses
Am extremely upset...
1st thing - am in pain from diarrhea, headache & dizziness since last night has yet to receive the medications after doctor's morn rounds & reminded b4 lunch. Rountine medications not given too for high blood pressure - lozartan, gastric - mebeverine & lacteol forte. :((
Secondly, nite shift nurse just now wanted me to inject insulin using flexpen which my Diabetes Nurse Educator had taught me. Before injection, I must make sure flexpen is working by turning to 2 units, press & ensure there's insulin splurt out. If it's dripping no point injecting...the nurse dun believe me!! Kept arguing with me! Afterwhich, she then said:" Then I'll have to help u then with the syringe & we cant access u whether I know how to inject correctly. I've never used syringe before. Kept saying see insuin got drip from the point, can inject lah..I never heard must test like that leh. I see my patients also inject just like that. >_<
1st thing - am in pain from diarrhea, headache & dizziness since last night has yet to receive the medications after doctor's morn rounds & reminded b4 lunch. Rountine medications not given too for high blood pressure - lozartan, gastric - mebeverine & lacteol forte. :((
Secondly, nite shift nurse just now wanted me to inject insulin using flexpen which my Diabetes Nurse Educator had taught me. Before injection, I must make sure flexpen is working by turning to 2 units, press & ensure there's insulin splurt out. If it's dripping no point injecting...the nurse dun believe me!! Kept arguing with me! Afterwhich, she then said:" Then I'll have to help u then with the syringe & we cant access u whether I know how to inject correctly. I've never used syringe before. Kept saying see insuin got drip from the point, can inject lah..I never heard must test like that leh. I see my patients also inject just like that. >_<
Warded at SGH
2 Mar, appt with Dr Tan my endocrinologist, ended warded as I was very emotional & confided in DNE. MO dr came to check on me & she's like so 'sotong' & keep asking me about my medications timing. However, this morn, I wasnt given my usual lozartan for high blood pressure minus neurobion & other vitamins as I've diarrhea.
Last nite, I had gastric pain & diarrhea. Informed the nurse but was told to let dr knw. When Dr Yung came, told him abt it, expected to have the medications 1-2 hrs later but didn't!! Morn, was given chicken porridge for breakfast but felt vomitting after small mouth, I didn't take it. The pain is excruciating, saw Dr Chua, pdoc, told her abt it. She's very nice pdoc which Dr Lee sent over. Dr Lee was very concern about my condition.
After 2nd time telling the MO dr, I waited till 2.40p.m. for my medications to arrive!!
Last nite, I had gastric pain & diarrhea. Informed the nurse but was told to let dr knw. When Dr Yung came, told him abt it, expected to have the medications 1-2 hrs later but didn't!! Morn, was given chicken porridge for breakfast but felt vomitting after small mouth, I didn't take it. The pain is excruciating, saw Dr Chua, pdoc, told her abt it. She's very nice pdoc which Dr Lee sent over. Dr Lee was very concern about my condition.
After 2nd time telling the MO dr, I waited till 2.40p.m. for my medications to arrive!!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Hallucination, Psychosis or Schizophrenia?
Of late, I've extreme intense anxiety which ended up not able to go to sleep even when I took zoloft & lorazepamx2 tabs.
Last night, unwanted thoughts filled my mind & my tears rolled down after experiencing pain from injecting insulin. I even seem to feel that there's 'something' which 'wanted' me. Always hearing sounds but found there isnt anything.
Is it my hallucination, psychosis or schizophrenia?
Recent, appointment with neurologist said my migraine is due to my underlying depression. Gastric doctor prescribed some new medications for my IBS.
Am being followed up by psychiatrist, psychologist & even art therapist.
Last night, unwanted thoughts filled my mind & my tears rolled down after experiencing pain from injecting insulin. I even seem to feel that there's 'something' which 'wanted' me. Always hearing sounds but found there isnt anything.
Is it my hallucination, psychosis or schizophrenia?
Recent, appointment with neurologist said my migraine is due to my underlying depression. Gastric doctor prescribed some new medications for my IBS.
Am being followed up by psychiatrist, psychologist & even art therapist.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Eating Disorder Awareness Forum at The POD - NLB
This morn, attended eating disorder awareness forum. Saw Dian, Nana, Florence when am out of the lift lead by staff. While looking for familiar ppl & seat, saw Dr Lee talking to Dr Kumu, she was surprised & was happy to see me. I sat right behind Dr Lee on the 2nd row. Dian & Florence were surprsied at my attendance. There's goodie bag that contains lotsa goodies!! WOW!!
I got a pin for $2.
I've yet to switch hp to silent mode then received smsed from nurse who went there to surprised me me. At the same time, Dr Lee was giving speech & she said :"Could that someone pls switch off ur hp to silent mode, it's v disturbing." :p I waved to her & apologised & she laughed.
Very happy to see Eunice jie jie too. We had a break at 11a.m. - but she had to go for another course at city hall. Dr Lee mentioned that her sometimes fast food is once a wk, unlike Dr Kumu. hehehe...
There's an ED recovered patient Tan WL launched the book & gave talk about her personal journey.
After session ended, saw Janet, my psychologist. hehehe
I got a pin for $2.
I've yet to switch hp to silent mode then received smsed from nurse who went there to surprised me me. At the same time, Dr Lee was giving speech & she said :"Could that someone pls switch off ur hp to silent mode, it's v disturbing." :p I waved to her & apologised & she laughed.
Very happy to see Eunice jie jie too. We had a break at 11a.m. - but she had to go for another course at city hall. Dr Lee mentioned that her sometimes fast food is once a wk, unlike Dr Kumu. hehehe...
There's an ED recovered patient Tan WL launched the book & gave talk about her personal journey.
After session ended, saw Janet, my psychologist. hehehe
My Art Therapist Dian Handayani
Dian Herberth
Art Therapist at Singapore General Hospital
•MA Art Therapy Graduate Assistant at LASALLE College of the Arts
•Clinical Placement at LASALLE-SIA College of the Arts
•Clinical Placement at Nanyang Primary School, Singapore
•Clinical Placement at Aldersgate Powerlife Centre, Singapore
•Clinical Placement at KKH
Education
•Lasalle-SIA College of the Arts
•London Metropolitan University
•London South Bank University
Interests:Psychology, art, women’s studies, yoga, gym, travel
Honors and Awards:RSA (Royal Society of Art)
Less Crime Through Design Award.
Project awarded was 'Lapdog', an anti-theft device for laptops in public spaces
Art Therapist at Singapore General Hospital
•MA Art Therapy Graduate Assistant at LASALLE College of the Arts
•Clinical Placement at LASALLE-SIA College of the Arts
•Clinical Placement at Nanyang Primary School, Singapore
•Clinical Placement at Aldersgate Powerlife Centre, Singapore
•Clinical Placement at KKH
Education
•Lasalle-SIA College of the Arts
•London Metropolitan University
•London South Bank University
Interests:Psychology, art, women’s studies, yoga, gym, travel
Honors and Awards:RSA (Royal Society of Art)
Less Crime Through Design Award.
Project awarded was 'Lapdog', an anti-theft device for laptops in public spaces
Friday, February 25, 2011
2nd Art Therapy session ytd
Ytd was my 2nd art therapy session. Saw the prev session art pieces in Dian's hands surprsied me as I wonder SGH got such advanced copier can scan & print out in color!! hehe
Dian asked me what I wanna do & I've no idea at all. I was over tired & still dizzy as morn had fasting blood test & cldnt slp the night before & felt damn hungry.
She let me chose to have the standard dwg block or the much bigger piece, of course, I chose the bigger one. Was told to fold into dividers of 4. I've to complete the sentences by dwg....
1. I am...
2. I feel...
3. I hope...
4. I will...
I was given 40 mins to complete the dwgs. We discussed over the pictures I drew & in the middle of the session, Dian said I looked very unhappy but I was unhappy abt her but I was over tired for past week with lotsa appts & lasting whole day each.
Dian asked me what I wanna do & I've no idea at all. I was over tired & still dizzy as morn had fasting blood test & cldnt slp the night before & felt damn hungry.
She let me chose to have the standard dwg block or the much bigger piece, of course, I chose the bigger one. Was told to fold into dividers of 4. I've to complete the sentences by dwg....
1. I am...
2. I feel...
3. I hope...
4. I will...
I was given 40 mins to complete the dwgs. We discussed over the pictures I drew & in the middle of the session, Dian said I looked very unhappy but I was unhappy abt her but I was over tired for past week with lotsa appts & lasting whole day each.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Severe gastric problem might lead to what we called "Gastroparesis"
Diabetes people tends to suffer from gastric problem such as heartburn & GERD. If left untreated, it might pose even serious problem affecting the nerve inside the gastric called "Gastroparesis"
For more information, please follow this url http://www.ehow.com/about_5530354_gastric-diabetes-information.html
For more information, please follow this url http://www.ehow.com/about_5530354_gastric-diabetes-information.html
My new additional medications
These are my new additional medications prescribed by gastro doctor, Dr T :-
Mebeverine HCL tablet (Irritable bowel syndrome, Spasm of the gut muscle),
Magnesium Carbonate Aromatic Mixture (dyspepsia),
Famotidine Tablet (backward flow of stomach acid into the esophagus (gastroesophageal reflux disease-GERD),
Domperidone (suppress nausea and vomiting) &
Lactobacillus Acidophilus 5 billion Capsule (general digestion problems; irritable bowel syndrome (IBS); inflammation of the colon and infection with Helicobacter pylori, the type of bacteria that causes ulcers.)
Vestibular Therapist D was nice of her to refer me back to prev physiotherapst I for my neck/ shoulder blade problem. Now that my eye gaze is better thou with spinning sensation while lying on bed. I is a very good physiotherapist, besides checking on my neck stiffness, she did further check & found my spine was extremely stiff & crooked. She tried to loosen but unable to, too hard..but she advised me doing some spinal & pelvic exercises. Did some biceps strengthening exercises while trying to balance myself on gym ball.
Mebeverine HCL tablet (Irritable bowel syndrome, Spasm of the gut muscle),
Magnesium Carbonate Aromatic Mixture (dyspepsia),
Famotidine Tablet (backward flow of stomach acid into the esophagus (gastroesophageal reflux disease-GERD),
Domperidone (suppress nausea and vomiting) &
Lactobacillus Acidophilus 5 billion Capsule (general digestion problems; irritable bowel syndrome (IBS); inflammation of the colon and infection with Helicobacter pylori, the type of bacteria that causes ulcers.)
Vestibular Therapist D was nice of her to refer me back to prev physiotherapst I for my neck/ shoulder blade problem. Now that my eye gaze is better thou with spinning sensation while lying on bed. I is a very good physiotherapist, besides checking on my neck stiffness, she did further check & found my spine was extremely stiff & crooked. She tried to loosen but unable to, too hard..but she advised me doing some spinal & pelvic exercises. Did some biceps strengthening exercises while trying to balance myself on gym ball.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
1st Art Therapy @SGH
Knw wat my art therapist D asked me to draw this am? Ist fold the dwg paper to 1/2, draw what I wanna see decor on my door, 2nd dwg to draw myself or animal to represent myself in an environment & last one volcano dwg!! I was SURPRISED tat I cld paint the VOLCANO like REAL!!! lol.... but she dun smile a lot leh...hey :p
Counter staff G asked for my appt card but D didn't give it to me. Ain't this counter staff's job? I went to take from D & then counter staff G asked when's the appt, why D didn't wrote there. Counter staff G didn't even bother to look for D & ask her leh!!
When I saw D, I quickly called her name out & told her. Counter staff G said D, U must write on the appt card lah, otherwise how am I gonna schedule. Wah!!! Old staff dare to say new art therapist ah???
Counter staff G asked for my appt card but D didn't give it to me. Ain't this counter staff's job? I went to take from D & then counter staff G asked when's the appt, why D didn't wrote there. Counter staff G didn't even bother to look for D & ask her leh!!
When I saw D, I quickly called her name out & told her. Counter staff G said D, U must write on the appt card lah, otherwise how am I gonna schedule. Wah!!! Old staff dare to say new art therapist ah???
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Ur Vote is Very IMPORTANT to me
Please vote for me at http://apps.facebook.com/photo-comp/144341026885/upload/49 for eating my greens contest.
Thank you very much. :)
Thank you very much. :)
Saturday, February 12, 2011
My 1st ride on Buggy
This morn, woke up v early at 6am, preparing to walk to Chinese Garden main entrance to meet up my TJRC (Taman Jurong Running Club) members to tour Jap/ Chinese Garden for the upcoming Jurong Lake Run.
Sun was sorching & I'm famished at 11.30a.m. as I had v light early breakfast. Allan told me can go if there's something on & I proceed as I had CNY visiting today too.
I hurt my leg & there's long scratch on my right wrist, dunno when got it. I was extremely tired, took bus 154 to MACs had SME meal with med milo to recharge myself.
Went home, took shower & wait for mommy to have luch at home before gg to my father's elder sis's daughter's hse which was at braddell. Cousin in law took out out at nearby hawker for dinner & we went home after.
My face & hands were sun burnt. :(
Took lotsa scenic views of Jap/ Chinese Garden at my facebook "Turquoise Artworks".
Sun was sorching & I'm famished at 11.30a.m. as I had v light early breakfast. Allan told me can go if there's something on & I proceed as I had CNY visiting today too.
I hurt my leg & there's long scratch on my right wrist, dunno when got it. I was extremely tired, took bus 154 to MACs had SME meal with med milo to recharge myself.
Went home, took shower & wait for mommy to have luch at home before gg to my father's elder sis's daughter's hse which was at braddell. Cousin in law took out out at nearby hawker for dinner & we went home after.
My face & hands were sun burnt. :(
Took lotsa scenic views of Jap/ Chinese Garden at my facebook "Turquoise Artworks".
Friday, February 11, 2011
Workshops & Events
There are some upcoming workshops & forums related to mental health which might be of interest to you
Eating Disorder Awareness Forum by SGH @National Library - http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/event.php?eid=110162589059268
Art Therapy aids in mental health recovery - interesting workshop http://www.arttherapy.com.sg/?page_id=38
There will be upcoming Jurong Lake Run at Jurong Lake Park (prev Yuhua & Japanese Garden), details available here http://www.juronglakerun.com/, brought to u by Taman Jurong Running Club - from Publicity Team. :)
Oh yes, am from the Publicity team..hehe
Eating Disorder Awareness Forum by SGH @National Library - http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/event.php?eid=110162589059268
Art Therapy aids in mental health recovery - interesting workshop http://www.arttherapy.com.sg/?page_id=38
There will be upcoming Jurong Lake Run at Jurong Lake Park (prev Yuhua & Japanese Garden), details available here http://www.juronglakerun.com/, brought to u by Taman Jurong Running Club - from Publicity Team. :)
Oh yes, am from the Publicity team..hehe
Monday, February 7, 2011
Insulin causing skin infections
Previous years, I've been on oral anti-diabetic medication & I've no problem with skin infections. Of late, since dec, when dr wanted me to inject insulin determir, found that am easily infection with skin infections & even bumps which are extremely painful, hard & red!!
Thurs, gg to show the diabetes nurse & inform Dr Tan. Am the one suffering all these...initially my 1st 2 sites, he said I scratched it, use moisturizer but it got WORSEN!! Now my neck, abdomens got 3 but now got addtional & the 2 healing got adverse back. :(
Thou determir is the safest insulin with least side effects but am getting all these unnecessary skin infections & painful bumps!! WTH
Thurs, gg to show the diabetes nurse & inform Dr Tan. Am the one suffering all these...initially my 1st 2 sites, he said I scratched it, use moisturizer but it got WORSEN!! Now my neck, abdomens got 3 but now got addtional & the 2 healing got adverse back. :(
Thou determir is the safest insulin with least side effects but am getting all these unnecessary skin infections & painful bumps!! WTH
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Opening of online shop
Am pondering to open my own online shop to sell some of my stuffs, be it my artworks, paintings or soft toys to collectibles. At least, to fetch some income. I can't stay at home & do nothing.
I wanna try out on nutritional cookies especially suitable for diabetes. :)
I wanna try out on nutritional cookies especially suitable for diabetes. :)
Friday, January 28, 2011
LIARS!!!!!!!!
Last nite, rec sms from nurse informing me that Dr increased my insulin, additional dose in morn.They told me once my blood glucose went down & will decrease my insulin injection but they LIED to ME!!Made me v upset that I BITE HARD ON MY HAND.
This morn, nurse msged me wanting me to go ovr to hospital but I not FREE! Mon got appt le mah!!
Am not gg to inject ANYMORE!! WTH
This morn, nurse msged me wanting me to go ovr to hospital but I not FREE! Mon got appt le mah!!
Am not gg to inject ANYMORE!! WTH
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Job opportunities
On mon, I've put up my resume online, next got call from AIA hiring me as manager & just now as HR mgr too. However, prefer in healthcare industry on customer related service. It's nice of the lady to help me find vacancy in that area am looking for.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Badly injured knee & 6 ulcers in tongue
Argh!! Ytd, inside Anchorpoint shuttle bus, badly hurt my knee when bumped onto the back of front seat, damn PAINFUL till I cldn't even scream. Sunken in with blue black...in addition to my 6 ulcers in tongue under & right side of it...pengz...cant enjoy my food! :((
Doctor even told me if feel don't well, have to go back for x-ray.
Doctor even told me if feel don't well, have to go back for x-ray.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Countdown
Am counting down to the last few days at work before I clear leave from 25th Jan till 1st Feb & 2nd feb will be my last day to hand back staff card & have clearance forms signed. There won't be any farewell lunch for me & there's only so called potluck CNY. So coincidence, so fast..usually they have it outside, whereas this year in office. Even just the empty ang pow also never give me. Very expensive meh??
This morning, was told to see over digitisation as there's not enough manpower & I have to be in the 'prison' working as 'security guard'.
This morning, was told to see over digitisation as there's not enough manpower & I have to be in the 'prison' working as 'security guard'.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Happy New Year 2011
Welcome New Year 2011. My resolutions:
1. Reduce more weight.
2. Eat less.
3. Exercise more.
4. Learn to relax.
5. Find new part-time job.
6. Out of depression & blood glucose under good control.
1. Reduce more weight.
2. Eat less.
3. Exercise more.
4. Learn to relax.
5. Find new part-time job.
6. Out of depression & blood glucose under good control.
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